A Gentle Touch

LONG DIVISION. Death Note : Matt/Mello.

2008-11-01T23:28:50Z

Fandom: Death Note.
Subject: Matt/Mello.
Warnings: Sexually explicit lyrics.
Notes: A bizarre combination of angst and semi-crack. Not as coherent as I would've liked it, perhaps, but hopefully it will be enjoyed anyway. Artists include Sleater-Kinney, R.E.M., Poe, Nirvana, Amy Ray, Tegan & Sara, Matchbox Twenty, and Big Brother & the Holding Company (with Janis Joplin). ALL SONGS IN .MP3 FORMAT.

long division: a matt/mello fanmix

one. into the night. exmembers
Burning.
Open up the door and show me what it's for
And give me more of everything everything
You want it bad what you never had
So take a stab at everything everything
Well you had never seen the bright lights
Like you were gonna see it tonight
'Cause we are the fires that burn so bright into the night
Into the night
Rub it through the road this engine might explode
You're gonna blow out everything everything
You'll make 'em run running from the stun gun
'Cause you're number one of everything everything

two. disease. matchbox twenty
Captivated.
Feels like you're making a mess
You're hell on wheels in a black dress
You drove me to the fire
And left me there to burn
Every little thing you do is tragic
All my life oh was magic
Beautiful girl
I can't breathe
I got a disease
Deep inside me
Makes me feel uneasy baby
I can't live without you
Tell me what I am supposed to do about it
Keep your distance from it
Don't pay no attention to me
I got a disease

three. smells like teen spirit. nirvana
Battle.
Load up on guns and bring your friends
It's fun to lose and to pretend
She's overboard and self-assured
Oh no I know a dirty word
Hello hello hello how low
Hello hello hello how low
Hello hello hello how low
Hello hello hello
With the lights out it's less dangerous
Here we are now entertain us
I feel stupid and contagious
Here we are now entertain us
A mulatto an albino
A mosquito my libido yay

four. not a virgin. poe
Cocky.
I'm not a virgin anymore
Just thought you should know
Before you let another lie slip through those crooked little teeth
I don't think you wanna start that shit with me
Much better yet
Tell me something dangerous and true
Oh yeah that looks much sexier on you
Careful what it is you say
'Cause I can see right through you on a cloudy day
And darlin' I think you wanna play
I'm not a virgin anymore
I've been taken
I've been hung up I get down and start it over again
I've been opened
I've been closed like a book and burned down like a written sin
So if you wanna play dirty my darling I'm gonna win
I'm not a virgin anymore

five. the remainder. sleater-kinney
Crazy.
One and one and one is two
All this and more you said was true
And if you'd left me ground to stand on
I'd run so far away from you
What do you do with a remainder?
You round it up or round it down
And if you're scared by what you're left with
Destroy the answer that youve found. . . .
You were the one
When the storm rolled in
The sky was grey like your heart
With no color at all
I don't know you like this
You're as reckless as wind
And I could not predict
Just the way this would end

six. moon. mary timony
Lazy.
I first met you on the street
With terrible music under my feet
Now I'm lost in the valley of dreams
I want to know your melodies
Baby I just wanna be with you
Driving in your truck
There's nothing I'd rather do
The moon is shining purple light
Shooting poison arrows and giving me second sight
Baby I just wanna be with you
Drying cigarettes and drinking shampoo
Will the moon give us this night?
Maybe not but I'm not gonna lose my sight

seven. mountains of glory. amy ray
Lonely.
Call up my rockboy finally score
He's got drama like a toreador and
Me and the bottle we're on the mend
I'm tired of winning gonna lose again
I said I'm gonna miss being the boy
I'm gonna miss being the man yeah
I'm gonna miss being the boy
I'm gonna miss being the man yeah
When I go down to F L A
Sand in my shoes makes me think of you
I can't get it out it's kinda rough
I like the way it feels but it's not enough

eight. so fast, so numb. r>e>m>
Overdose.
You love it you hate it
You want to re-create it
Now, this is here this is me
This is what I wanted you to see
That was then was that that is gone
That is what I wanted you to feel
You love it you hate it
You spit it out the bitter pill
I've been around I've been your lover
I let it go at kill devil hill
You're coming onto something so fast so numb
That you can't even feel

nine. pocket games. cadallaca
Leaving.
i feel like i'm a runway on the ground
like a bird that goes up but won't be coming down
and i die right as the plane takes off the ground
like a kid i know but i can't stand the sound
ordinary pride in front of everyone
my initials are secret can you tell me who i am
am i a famous person am i someone on tv
tell me something baby am i hot or am i cold

ten. cowboy song. midtown dickens
Camaraderie.
You can write a cowboy song
About everyone who's done you wrong
You can sing it to me with your eyes closed
It's a tune we both know well. . . .
Were you aware of your loaded gun?
Would've hurt a lot less if you were a straight shooter
Were you really aiming at me?
We can walk outside together with our hands on our pistols tonight
We can take ten paces and turn around
And aim at the city street lights

eleven. ghost. indigo girls
Past.
dark and dangerous like a secret
that gets whispered in a hush
(don't tell a soul)
when i wake the things i dreamt about you
last night make me blush
(don't tell a soul)
and you kiss me like a lover
then you sting me like a viper
i go follow to the river
play your memory like a piper
and i feel it like a sickness
how this love is killing me
i'd walk into the fingers
of your fire willingly
and dance the edge of sanity
i've never been this close
i'm in love with your ghost

twelve. prettier than me. the muffs
Present.
My dreams are prettier than me
If I close my eyes this is what I see
You are never there and you'll never see
Never mind the truth
Never mind you'll always be the same
Lying all the time do you ever sleep
wake up feeling fine you don't even care
I can never be prettier for you
I'm only ever prettier for me
Never mind the truth you'll never see
Never mind you mean nothing to me
Never mind I have no place to go
Never mind you'll never ever know

thirteen. bang and blame. r>e>m>
Indiscretion.
If you could see yourself now baby the tables are turned
The whole world hinges on your swings
Your secret life of indiscreet discretion
I turn the screw leave the screen
Don't point your finger
You know that's not my thing
You came to bang bang bang bang and bang
Blame blame blame
You bang bang bang bang and bang
It's not my thing so let it go. . . .
You kiss on me
Tug on me
Rub on me
Jump on me
You bang on me
Beat on me
Hit on me
Let go on me
You let go on me

fourteen. come on kids. tegan + sara
Cross-country.
We were so high we thought we'd definitely die
Cause we were dead already dying
Endless nights took on my whole life
Or so I thought
It turns out all your friends
They were just mean dressed up
So, come on kids eat those pills
You got your whole life to lose
We've got so many friends
That wear their feet too big for their shoes
We've got cities to visit
We've got trees we've yet to live in
So get yourself on top of me
Before I'm gone gone gone

fifteen. narcissus. alanis morissette
Jealousy.
Dear self centered boy I don't know why I still feel affected by you
I've never lasted very long with someone like you
I never did although I have to admit I wanted to
Dear magnetic boy you've never been with anyone who doesn't take your shit
You've never been with anyone who's dared to call you on it
I wonder how you'd be if someone were to call you on it
And any talk of willingness
And any talk of both feet in
And any talk of commitment
Leaves you running for the door
Why why do I try to change you
Try to change you when you really don't want me to
You go back to the women who will dance the dance
You go back to your friends who will lick your ass
You go back to being so oblivious
You go back to the center of the universe

sixteen. how to play dead. sleater-kinney
Use.
Do you want to hurt me
Go ahead and try
You're feeling sick you poor thing
Clean up your little mess
Then I'll suck your dick
Didn't I tell you it wasn't fun
You want to show me how to play dead
How it feels to be still
How to please you
If I don't give you just what you need
It hurts you I'm such a tease
You're just a boy who likes to whine
I'm gonna choke can't feel a thing
You say go deeper you like it when I scream
And then you tell me I'm so good

seventeen. beat my guest. the epoxies
Abuse.
Well tie me up and hit me with a stick
Beat me beat me
Yeah use a truncheon or a household brick
Beat me beat me
There's so much happiness behind these tears
Beat me beat me
I pray you'll beat me
For ten thousand years
Beat me beat me
I'm black and blue baby
I love you
Be your dog
For just one flog
You don't hear me plead
For you to make me bleed
Beat me beat me

eighteen. calculation theme. metric
Cold.
I'm sick you're tired let's dance
Break to love make lust I know it isn't
I'm sick you're tired let's dance
Cold as numbers but let's dance
As though it were easy for you to lead me
I could be passive gracefully. . . .
Tonight your ghost will ask my ghost
Where is the love?
Tonight your ghost will ask my ghost
Who here is in line for a raise?
Tonight your ghost will ask my ghost
Where is the love?
Tonight your ghost will ask my ghost
Who put these bodies between us?

nineteen. amazed. poe
Discovery.
Wait I thought I had this down
I built all my cages and my hide outs
I covered all my bases
But you
You creep in like a whisper
I try not to listen but I hear you
I don't know just what it is you do
But do it again
I'm amazed
When push comes to shove what I'd give to you
Everything
I'm amazed
The walls that I wouldn't mind crashing through
And I'd do it for days and days
I'm amazed
I'm amazed
At all of the things I know you have done
'Cause this time I think we've really won
That tables have turned
Now I'm taking my hat off to you
You said "we'll see"
But darling it's all clear to me
I'm amazed

twenty. hello. evanescence
Future.
Playground schoolbell rings again
Rainclouds come to play again
Has no one told you she's not breathing?
Hello I am your mind
Giving you someone to talk to
Hello
If I smile and don't believe
Soon I know I'll wake from this dream
Don't try to fix me I'm not broken
Hello
I'm the lie living for you so you can hide
Don't cry
Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping
Hello I'm still here
All that's left of yesterday

twenty-one. ball and chain. big brother & the holding company
Despair.
S-sitting down by my window
Oh looking at the rain
S-sitting down by my window now now
All around I felt it
All I could see was the rain
Something grabbed a hold of me honey
Felt to me honey like Lord a ball and chain
Yeah! Hey! You know what I mean
But it's way too heavy for you
You can't hold it tomorrow. . . .
I don't understand how come you're gone, man. I don't understand why half the world is still crying, man, when the other half of the world is still crying too, man, I can't get it together. I mean, if you got a cat for one day, man — I mean, if you, say, say, if you want a cat for 365 days, right — You ain't got him for 365 days, you got him for one day, man. Well I tell you that one day, man, better be your life, man. Because, you know, you can say, oh man, you can cry about the other 364, man, but you're gonna lose that one day, man, and that's all you've got. You gotta call that love, man. That's what it is, man. If you got it today you don't want it tomorrow, man, 'cause you don't need it, 'cause as a matter of fact, as we discovered in the train, tomorrow never happens, man. It's all the same fucking day, man.

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THE FARTHER YOU RUN, THE MORE YOU RECALL. Neverwhere : General.

2008-10-09T17:40:46Z

Fandom: Neverwhere.
Subject: General.
Warnings: None.
Note: Contains general, character, Richard/marquis, Richard/Door, and Richard/Jessica songs. Artists include Poe, Fashion Design, Helium, Stabilo, Matchbox Twenty, Stranger Spirits, and Vanessa Carlton. ALL SONGS IN .MP3 FORMAT.

THE FARTHER YOU RUN, THE MORE YOU RECALL:
Neverwhere.

1. After The Fall October Project
{ Falling through the cracks. }
In a city of faces
That never look back
Where doors never open
And eyes never meet
Someone behind me was tracing my steps
As I ran
Through the fog down a cobblestone street
In a city of crossroads
That never lead home
Where secrets unravel
And fates intertwine
Someone was calling my name in the night
As I ran
From a voice that was echoing mine
The farther you run
The more you recall
The loss of your innocence
After the fall
The farther you run
The more you recall
After the fall
In a city of magic
That spins out of time
Where God has no image
And Man finds no grace
Something inside me was seeking itself
As I ran
From a shadow who'd stolen my face

2. Feel Matchbox Twenty
{ Richard has too much to forget about. Marquis's POV. }
What you want
What you got
Live your life in a crawlspace
I'd help you out
But you don't
Want a chance at a better life
You said you never took a ride
And now you wanna play
Well it's a big, big city
Let me show you around
Sometime
And now
You crossed that line
You can't come back
Tell me how does it feel now
Too late
Too much to forget about
Can't stop now
Tell me how does it feel now
I'm only asking
Because I wanna know
How you wanna feel

3. Congo Genesis
{ To the doubting masses (Jessica). Richard's POV. }
You say that I put chains on you
But I don't think that's really true
But if you want to be free from me
You gotta lose me in another world
Send me to the Congo I'm free to leave
There's always somewhere anybody can lead
Send me to the Congo you have to believe
You can do it if you wanna just do what you please. . . .
Into my heart you came
And gave a whole new meaning to my life
Into my world you brought a light
I thought it never would go out. . . .
I would never be the one to say you had no reason
To want me somewhere else far far away
But someday you may understand, someday you will see
That someone who would die for you is all I've ever been

4. Bad Education Tilly & The Wall
{ On first listen, I thought this was a total Richard song. Then, on the second pass, I went, "OMGWTF TRANNIES?!" So now it is either about Richard/Door, Richard wearing dresses, or Door's odd fashion sense. Or . . . the marquis wearing dresses? It could happen. }
Oh, pretty boy
You found it hard to really find out what felt right
You wanna be a pretty girl, you hunt at night
The streets, your urgency to bleed
You bruised up both your knees
While rifling through women’s jeans
'Cause the attraction’s always high
Sparkle in the sparkle fire
The grittiest of grimes, your clothes are ruined
You’re running in the wild, almost carrying a child
You got your kite so high, I think you flew it
I know it, I think you knew it
Now it’s all bad education
Feeling fine, I’m feeling patient
Girls and boys and full frustration
St. Valentine, I think I taste it
Tugging at the seatbelt
I'm jumping out the saddle
I'm shuffling my feet around
I'm kneeling at the steeple
Will my heart teeter, tatter?
I'm a believer, I'm solid matter
Oh, pretty girl
You turned it on, you turned it out, it all felt off
That's how it is, that’s how it was
You searched it all so well, underwater in a well
You smeared on cool lips while checking off a checked-off list
The situation’s never kind, feathering a dance-hall stride
You're playing with the craziest locomotive
You broke your fingers in the climb
You've scuffed off all your pretty shine
You've got your air so thin
I think you blew it, did I blow it?
You fell into it
Oh boy, you look so good
Oh, when you fake it
Hey, I think I made it, oh, did I make it?
You tried so hard, boy, you better make it
I think I'll take it, oh, should I take it?
Oh, pretty girl, I don't think you can take it
I think I hate it, oh, do I hate it?
I taste it, I taste it
I'm jumping out the saddle
I'm shuffling my feet around
I'm kneeling at the steeple
I'm tugging at the seatbelt
I'm jumping out the saddle
I'm shuffling my feet around
I'm kneeling at the steeple
I hope you feel it in your hands

5. Masquerade Fashion Design
{ The Marquis: deception. }
Into the dark you can't control can't explain
You feel my skin
Oh oh oh
Into the fall you can't escape can't contain
You masquerade
Oh oh oh
Oh you dance
Can you feel this light is wrong
Oh we dance, you feel fine
You're bitten, so bitter
Tie your mask it's never cold ever wanting
Fear your skin
Oh oh oh
Ice from my eyes it's never pain ever knowing
You masquerade
Oh oh oh
Into your hand you can't ignore can't pretend
You feel your skin
Oh oh oh
Oh you dance can you feel the spite in this room
Oh we dance & feel fine
You're bitten, so bitter

6. Flawed Design Stabilo
{ The Marquis. }
When I was a young boy
I was honest and I had more self control
If I was tempted I would
Run
Then when I got older I began to lie to get exactly what I wanted when I wanted it
And I wanted it
Now I’m having trouble differentiating between what I want and what I need to make me
Happy
So instead of thinking I just act before I have a chance to contemplate the consequence of
Action
And I will turn off
And I will shut down
Burying the voices of my conscience hitting ground
And I will turn off
And I will shut down
The chemicals are restless in my head
‘Cause I lie
Not because I want to
But I seem to need to all the time (need to all the time)
Yeah I lie
And I don’t even know it
Maybe this is all a part of my
Flawed design
And ever since I figured out that I could control other people
I’ve had trouble sleeping with both
Eyes closed
And if I ask permission if I make sure it’s ok I promise I won’t slip up this time you can
Trust me
But never take advice from someone who just admitted to being devious and just confessed to
Treason
And I would also never ask a question that I cannot ask myself for it might dirty up your
Conscience

7. Hey Pretty Poe
{ Richard/Marquis, because, in my head, this is how the marquis talks: "Hey pretty man. I like your belly pretty man. . . ." }
Well I've got a mind full of wicked designs
I've got a non-stop-hole in my head-imagination
I'm in a building that has two-thousand floors
and when they all fall down
I think you know it's you they're fallin' for
I can't forget I am a sole architect
I built the shadows here
I built the growl in the voice I fear
You add it up but to do better than that
You've got to follow me
Boy I'm tryin' to show you where I'm at
Hey pretty
Don't you wanna take a ride with me?
Through my world
Hey pretty
Don't you wanna kick and slide
Through my world
Hey pretty
My pretty baby
Rockin' through my world
(my world)
Hey pretty
my pretty baby
Rockin' through my world
(my world)
Hey now
Can't you feel me longing
(Do you get the gist of this song now?)
Hey now
Can't you feel me?
(feel me)

8. Maps And Legends R.E.M.
{ The Marquis, caught in the legend. }
He's not to be reached, he's to be reached.
He's not to be reached, he's to be reached.
Called the fool and the company,
On his own where he'd rather be.
Where he ought to be, he sees what you can't see, can't you see that?
Maybe he's caught in the legend,
maybe he's caught in the mood.
Maybe these maps and legends
have been misunderstood.
Down the way the road's divided,
Paint me the places you have seen.
Those who know what I don't know
refer to the yellow, red and green
Maybe he's caught in the legend,
maybe he's caught in the mood.
Maybe these maps and legends
have been misunderstood. . . .
The map that you painted didn't seem real.
He just sings whatever he's seen
Point to the legend, point to the east,
Point to the yellow, red and green
Is he to be reached? He's not to be reached.
Is he to be reached? He's not to be reached anymore.

9. Miniature Disasters KT Tunstall
{ The Marquis (stranger to himself). }
Don't wanna be second best,
Don't wanna stand in line,
Don't wanna fall behind.
Don't wanna get caught out,
Don't want to do without.
And then the lesson I must learn
Is that I've got to wait my turn.
Looks like I've gotta be hot and cold,
Gotta be taught and told,
Got to be good as gold.
But perfectly honestly,
I think it would be good for me.
'Cause it's a hindrance to my health if I'm a stranger to myself
Miniature disasters and minor catastrophes,
Bring me to my knees.
Well, I must be my own master,
Or a miniature disaster will be,
Will be the death of me.
I don't have to raise my voice,
Don't have to be underhand,
Just gotta understand.
That it's gonna be up and down,
Gonna be lost and found.
And I can't take to the sky before I like it on the ground. . . .
And I need to patient, and I need to be brave,
I need to discover how I need to behave,
And I'll find out the answers when I know what to ask,
But I speak a different language, and everybody's talking too fast

10. LG Fuad Motion City Soundtrack
{ Marquis/Richard. }
Let's get fucked up and die
I'm speaking figuratively, of course
Like the last time that I committed suicide
Social suicide
Yeah, so I'm already dead on the inside,
But I can still pretend with my memories and photographs,
I've learned to love the lie.
I wanna know what it's like to be awkward and innocent, not belligerent.
I wanna know how it feels to be useful and pertinent and have common sense
Let me in, let me in to the club, 'cause I want to belong,
And I need to get strong, and if memory serves,
I'm addicted to words and they're useless.
(In this department)
Let's get fucked up and die
I'm riding hard on the last legs of every lie,
And the BMX bike of my life is about to explode,
I'm about to explode.
I'm a mess, I'm a wreck.
I am perfect, and I have learned to accept all my problems and short comings,
Because I am so visceral, yet deeply inept.
I want to thank you for being a part of my the forget-me-nots and marigolds
And all the things that don't get old
Is it legal to do this? I surely don't know.
It's the only way I have learned to express myself around other peoples' descriptions of life
I'm afraid I'm alone and entirely useless
(In this department)
Let's get fucked up and die.
For the last time I'm feeling
we'll try not to smile
As we cover our heads and drink heavily into the nights
That’s no shocking and surprise.
I believe that I can, overcome this and beat everything in the end
But I choose to abuse for the time being,
maybe I'll win, but for now I've decided to die.
Sister soldier
You’ve been such a positive influence on my mental frame
If I could ever repay you,
I would, but I'm hard up for cash
And my memory lacks initiative

11. The Swimmer Sleater-Kinney
{ Door. }
The swimmer is so far from the distant shore
The only time she never feels alone
On the land her body distorts
In the water lines are true to her mind
I can hardly see you now
Are you getting closer and
Do you know you're the one?
They will never understand
How washed up you feel on the land
The spot light of the sun, it shines on
The swimmer knows she'll never touch the floor
She can float unharmed by murky wars
And the land is as plain as her skin
But the water shines like the star in her mind

12. Letter Never Sent R.E.M.
{ London Below. }
It's been pretty simple so far
Vacation in Athens is calling me and knock, knock,
Knock on wood, I thought I'd left you behind
Heaven is yours, heaven is yours
Heaven's yours where I live
The thought of the catacombs left my soul at home
This letter never sent
And it's so far, it's so dark, I'm so lost
Heaven's yours, heaven's yours
Heaven's yours where I live
(Another story, another story for a while, someone show me)
When I'm moving too fast, where's my new address?
The water is evening now, the catacombs are filling in
If my soul was made of stone, no, not, not so dark, dark
And it's so far, it's so dark, I'm so lost
And it's so far, it's so far, it's so far

13. No Time The Guess Who
{ To Jessica. }
No time left for you
On my way to better things
No time left for you
I’ll find myself some wings
No time left for you
Distant roads are calling me
No time left for you.
No time for a summer friend
No time for the love you send
Seasons change and so did I
You need not wonder why
You need not wonder why
There’s no time left for you
No time left for you.
No time for a gentle rain
No time for my watch and chain
No time for revolving doors
No time for the killing floor
No time for the killing floor
There’s no time left for you
No time left for you.

14. Oh The Wind And Rain Helium
{ Door. }
That girl knows where she doesn't go
In the river with the rest of the boats
Under the water, under the stones
Away from the parties & the telephones
Until I'm gone, until I'm dead
I'll be making a wish on this empty head
Maybe I should just go to bed
Or try to pray or something instead
That girl knows where she doesn't belong
Under the ground where the days are long
Under the round earth's revolution song
Looking up through the dirt at right and wrong
I want anything you do
Don't tell me you don't think that it's true
I can do anything you can do
Don't tell me you think that I'm rude
'Cause I do anything you do
Don't tell me that I'm rude
I want everything you do
Don't tell me you think that I'm rude
That girl knows where she wants to go
Out on the river in a little lifeboat
Out on the castle's muddy moat
Through the walls with the rest of her ghosts

15. Mix Tape Brand New
{ Richard/Jessica. Rejection. }
And I know that you're a sucker for anything acoustic
But when I say "let's keep in touch"
I really mean I wish that you'd grow up
This is the first song for your mix tape
and it's short just like your temper
Somewhat golden like the afternoons
we used to spend before you got too cool
I got a twenty dollar bill
that says no one's ever seen you without makeup,
you're always made up
And I'm sick of your tattoos
and the way you don’t appreciate Brand New
or me
And I know that you're a sucker for anything acoustic
But when I say "let's keep in touch"
I hope you know I mean I wish that you'd grow up
This is the first song for your mix tape
and it’s short just like your temper
Somewhat golden like the afternoons
we used to spend before you got too cool
Yeah, but I wish you were my shadow

16. Longsleeves Fashion Design
{ White rooms. Richard/Marquis. It could be Richard/Door, but, uh, it's not. }
Do you remember
How your white rooms made me breathe?
Never had a choice
Stumbled into your velvet dream
Do you remember
How your white rooms made me glow?
It was my first time
To be a part of your show
And I soon discovered, no ho
Your vicious cycle, no ho
I never could surrender, no ho
Can you see
How your white rooms made me sick?
Took such a time
To see my life was at stake
Can you see
How your white rooms made me leave?
It was my first time
That I no longer believe

17. Put Your Hand Inside The Puppet Head They Might Be Giants
{ The Marquis: an zombie? }
As your body floats down Third Street
With the burn-smell factory closing up
Yes it's sad to say you will romanticize
All the things you've known before
It was not not not so great
It was not not not so great
And as you take a bath in that beaten path
There's a pounding at the door
Well It's a mighty zombie talking of some love and posterity
He says "The good old days never say good-bye
If you keep this in your mind:
You need some lo-lo-loving arms
You need some lo-lo-loving arms"
And as you fall from grace the only words you say are
Put your hand inside the puppet head
Put your hand inside the puppet head
Put your hand inside
Put your hand inside
Put your hand inside the puppet head
Ads up in the subway are the work of someone
Trying to please their boss
And though the guy's a pig we all know what he wants
Is just to please somebody else
If the pu-pu-puppet head
Was only bu-bu-busted in
It would be a better thing for everyone involved
And we wouldn't have to cry

18. Holy Roman The Get Up Kids
{ Questionable loyalty, Islington, Richard, and the marquis. }
Road map is a bitter pill
Scene stinks of a double deal
A good front like the devil will
Your eyes on the prize
Come clean like you said you would
Make peace like i know you could
Heroes don't do any good
With tears in their eyes
Fight the good fight
Maintain the trend
Just look me in the eyes and say
The world's not gonna end
Get stuck in your master plan
Place bets on an empty hand
Empire has a leg to stand
Holy roman style
A poison from a holy grail
Blind faith doesn't make a sale
Landmine on a righteous trail
March rank and file
Unpatriotic
Friend stabbing friend
You'll look me in the eyes
And say the world's not gonna end
Just look me in the eyes
And say the world's not gonna end
Will you save us?
Will you save us?

19. Normal Life Stranger Spirits
{ Richard wants more. }
Are you out there on your own?
Are you somewhere where you’re feeling lost
Feeling gone?
Everyone is there but no one’s home
So close your eyes and break your heart
And watch the sun go down
In a city where the windows light up
Like so many stars
Like every star’s another chance
That’s just too far away
For every star a chance
And now you’re just too far away
Yeah no one wants to live their lives
in such an empty way
It’s only money
If it all turns out wrong
If the only dream come true you’ve got
Is not you’re own
All you got to do is let go and hold on
All you need’s the next big thing that never comes along
In this city all the windows light up like so many stars
If it all falls apart between here and where you are
If this long distance is just too far,
I’ll be looking for a way to try to love you more
I’ll wait for you
While those windows light up like so many stars
Everyone’s a window where there’s someone still awake
Someone’s talkin’ to themselves
And counting their mistakes
Yeah no one wants to live their lives
In such an empty place
It’s just a city
Have you done all you can do?
Do you feel like you’re pushing
But you’re never getting through?
There’s someone out there feeling that way too
There’s someone out there
Looking out a window just like you
In a city where the lightbulbs burn out like so many lives
Love, don't let me live a normal life
Love, don't let me live a normal life

20. Twilight Vanessa Carlton
{ Richard, changed. Richard/Marquis. }
I was stained with a role
in a day not my own.
And as you walked into my life,
you showed what was needed to be shown.
And I always knew what was right,
just didn't know that I might,
Peel away and choose to see with such
different sight.
And I will never see the sky the same way
and I will learn to say good-bye to yesterday
and I will never seize to fly if held down
and I will always reach too high
'cause I've seen
'cause I've seen
Twilight
Never cared
Never wanted
Never sought to see what flaunted
So on purpose
So in my face
Couldn't see beyond own place
And it was so easy not to behold what I could hold
But you showed me
I could change whatever came within these shallow days.
As the sun shines through
and pushes away
and pushes ahead
Fills the warmth of blue
and leaves a chill instead
and I didn't know that
I could be so blind to all that is so real
And as illusion dies I see
there is so much to be revealed.

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THE DARK OF THE MATINEE. V For Vendetta : V/Evey.

2008-09-28T21:29:42Z

Fandom: V For Vendetta.
Subject: V/Evey.
Warnings: None.
Note: Twisted-up mind-fucked love (the very best kind). Artists include Action Action, Poe, Franz Ferdinand, Helium, Eisley, Bush, and R.E.M. ALL SONGS IN .MP3 FORMAT.

THE DARK OF THE MATINEE:
A V/EVEY FANMIX
for
V FOR VENDETTA

i. smoke & mirrors { action action }
Vaudeville: V.
comatose feed my head with liberty
i've got an appetite for deceit
i'm done well done stick a fork in me
cover me in apathy discreetly and distinctable
i am trying to break your heart
i'm plagued with doubt no frogs or murdered first born
my thoughts are just a little sunburnt
dismantle all that ever was strip it down withdraw the blood.
something's going to break real soon who's covering those eyes
safety in knowing others lies pulled by the strings of time.
hold me back i'm going to throw it all down on the table
do you expect us to believe in these fables
oh what to do with you
with you with you with you
hold me tight it seems all i really have is in front of me
is the rest just a dream or a fallacy
oh what to do with you
with you with you with you?
"a throw back to all those 80s slasher flicks
you're a cheap killer and i'm getting sick of it"
god's dead and all bets have waived their rights
all is fair in love and time who will win the game of war
illusion delusion a terrible secret
what one does see is another's lost prophet
hold me close i can see right through you
challenge all you've ever heard incite the search and motivate.
please read between the lines
a simple compromise
between the sands of time
please say with me
say with me.

ii. out of nowhere { delays }
Deliverance: Evey.
you came into frame
out of nowhere
pulled me through the trees
to the river.
and now i'm living each day like i'm living the last
and we could make it upstream if it wasn't so fast
'cause you're out of sight
out of nowhere
the evidence points to a matter of choice
come on and pick me pick me
for the flight
out of nowhere tonight
tonight.
i found more than anything
that to give in to love
was a way to begin
bowing down to literature.

iii. haunted { poe }
Questions: Evey.
come here
pretty please
can you tell me where i am
you
won't you say something
i need to get my bearings
i'm lost
and the shadows keep on changing.
and i'm haunted
by the lives that i have loved
and actions i have hated
(i'm haunted
By the promises i've made
And others i have broken)
i'm haunted
by the lies that wove a web
inside my haunted head.
don't cry
there's always a way
here in november in this house of leaves
we'll pray
please
i know it's hard to believe
to see a perfect forest
through so many splintered trees
you and me
and these shadows keep on changing.
hallways . . . always
i'll always want you
i'll always need you
i'll always love you
and i will always miss you.
come here
no i won't say please
one more look at the ghost
before i'm gonna make it leave
come here
i've got the pieces here
time to gather up the splinters
build a casket for my tears.
i'm haunted
by the hallways in this tiny room
the echoes there of me and you
the voices that are carrying this tune.

iv. the dark of the matinee { franz ferdinand }
Propaganda: V.
i time every journey
to bump into you
accidentally i
charm you and tell you
of the boys i hate
all the girls i hate
all the words i hate
all the clothes i hate
how i'll never be anything i hate
you smile mention something that you like
how you'd have a happy life
if you did the things you like.
find me and follow me
through corridors refectories and files
you must follow leave
this academic factory
you will find me in the Matinee
the dark of the Matinee
it's better in the Matinee
the dark of the Matinee is mine
yes it's mine.

v. invasion { eisley }
Disconcerted: Evey.
the colorless words are burning our heels
as the bright lights of the city fade
taking the chase to curb our fear
as the bloodless moon casts its face.
oh something's not right
i can feel it inside
something's not right.
you would take the breath from my throat
and you would take the cherished people that i hold.
all in time you will be one of us painless us blameless
go to sleep this won't hurt a bit
shifting your shape to our shells.
and they will try to make us forget ourselves
one by one one by one
call me crazy but they are after us
one by one one by one
you don't have to know the truth
if you believe it i believe it too.

vi. violent { concrete blonde }
Dissent: Evey.
i feel hot & red & wired
i feel burned out like i've expired
freaky dreams & you are there
with glowing eyes & burning hair
& i'm even dreaming
violent
every nerve & every cell
they gotta fight to stay alive & well
i'm in a world of chronic
discontent
screaming metal & burning rubber
always shoving & raping & cursing each other
exploding into violence.
try some buy some wheel & deal it
buy or steal it if it makes you feel it
we want it intense we want our violence
get ready to take it all the way
the things they do the words they say
it's all so ready to get
violent.
wedding bells all pink & white
chocolates & candlelight
you & me & we makes three
k-i-s-s-i-n-g like a comedy
that never played quite right
it seems so easy & it looks so clean
all the shiny happy people in the magazines
but nothing seems to mean
what it meant
a flood of blood & a burning pain
broken hearts & throbbing brains
the message has been sent
& it's violent.

vii. superball { helium }
Dismissed: Evey.
a glass eye i use to spy
little tiny teeth that tell a golden lie
my feet are small i'm not that tall
i'll tell you the truth but really not at all.
i'm small like a superball throw me at the wall
fragile like an eggshell i'm mad as hell.
my teeth are gold i'm not that old
i would tell you the truth but i'm not that bold
hook me with your hand my mouth is full of sand
everything i say ends with 'and'.
I'm small like a superball throw me up at the wall
fragile like an eggshell I'm mad as hell.

viii. paralyzer { finger eleven }
Displacement: Evey.
i hold on so nervously
to me & my drink
i wish it was cooling me
this so far has not been good
it's been shitty
& i feel awkward as i should
this club has got to be
the most pretentious thing
since i thought you & me
well i am imagining
a dark-lit place
oh your place or my place.
i'm not paralyzed but i seem to be struck by you
i want to make you move because you're standing still
if your body matches what your eyes can do
you'll probably move right through me on my way to you.
i hold out for one more drink
before i think
i'm looking too desperately
this so far has not been fun
i should just stay home
if one thing really means one
this club will hopefully
be closed in three weeks
that would be cool with me
well i'm still imagining
a dark-lit place
oh your place or my place.

ix. city lights on low clouds { stranger spirits }
Alone: V.
would i be lying if i said we were to blame
the city lights on these low clouds
seem to drizzle out your name
down in my skin that needs your touch
these moving clouds can feel the rush
and all alone i watch reminders
of where i am without you.
city lights on low clouds.
& i don't know what to think
i don't know what to do
i sit & watch the sky
& wonder where the stars are
for every star a chance
just like a loving glance
i miss tonight.
drifting by in moody shades
by orange and blue and reddish haze
the clouds are covering up the truth
if that’s the thing i want to see
and past the glow of city lights
it’s like you’re up there through the whites
of all the wispy daytime clouds
that now lay looming over me.
& the melancholy moon
uses them like veils
like see-through satin gowns
in ghostly shades of pale
i see the moonlight shining through me
like she's searching out my insides
it makes me feel so foolish
she entices me to stare
i'm empty & i'm aching
i'm wide awake but i'm not waking
i feel the pressure of the time
as i watch the clearing clouds.

x. jakarta { fashion design }
Disillusionment: Evey.
it's all in you
i can't move
it seems my mind
has begun to shrink
fade into everything.
those times & those thoughts
they don't make sense anymore
the moon in his eyes
i don't know what he saw.
i've strayed too far
tear through your hand
dripping from your smile
calling your man.
one last cigarette
one last drag
the smoke rings embrace
what i thought was everything.
& i look away
let go of your hand.

xi. monster hospital { metric }
Capture: Evey.
monster hospital can you please release me
you hold my hands down i've been bad
you hold my arms down i've been bad
i've been bad i've been bad.
i fought the war
i fought the war but the war won.
i fought the war
i fought the war but the war won't
stop for the love of god
i fought the war but the war won.

xii. turn you inside-out { r. e. m. }
Manipulation: V.
divide your cultured pearls in haste
i'm looking for to lay to waste
of all the things i cannot taste
and this not the racy race
they spoke out.
i believe in what you do
i believe in watching you
it's what you do.
i could turn you inside-out
what i choose not to do
i could turn you inside-out
what i choose not to do.
given the choice
given the heart
given the tool
given the word
given the cheers.

xiii. mouth (stingray mix) { bush }
Break: Evey.
you gave me this made me give
your silver grin still sticking it in
you have soul machine soul machine
the longest kiss feeling furniture day
drift madly to you pollute my heart drain
you have broken in me broken me.
all your mental armour drags me down
we can't breathe when you come around
all your mental armour drags me down
nothing hurts like your mouth mouth mouth.
we'd been missing long before
never found our way home
we'd been missing long before
we will found our way.
you gave me this made me give
you have soul machine broken free.

xiv. get up { sleater-kinney }
Release: Evey.
and when the body finally starts to let go
let it all go at once
not piece by piece
but like a whole bucket of stars
dumped into the universe
whoooh! watch it go!
good-bye small hands
good-bye small heart
good-bye small head
my soul is climbing tree trunks
and swinging from every branch.
they're calling on me
they're calling one me.
do you think i'm an animal
am i not
do you like fur
do you wanna come over
are we captive only for a short time
is there splendor
i'm not ashamed.
desire shoots through me
like birds singing
(the way you move
no ocean's waves were ever as fluid).
i hit the mark
i target moon i target sky i target sun
fall down on the world
fall down on the world before it falls on you.
like beggars like stars
like whores us all
Like beggars like dogs
Like stars us all.
shoot straight for my heart
(and when you were near
no sky was ever quite so clear).
like stars so small
like us when we fall
like beggars like whores
like lovers
get up
get up . . . too far.

xv. golden star { my brightest diamond }
Explode: Evey.
i always felt so far from you
like something wasn't right
but tonight
i rest my head inside the crook of your arm
and i feel like
a golden star
explode
(tonight we are full of
tonight we rejoice
you are my golden star).
though everything has come undone
the distance between us closes
and everything is suddenly
explode
(tonight we are full of
tonight we rejoice).

xvi. junkie { poe }
Destiny: Evey.
i know how to wear the costume
i know how to wear the mask
i even like the feel of having to ask
i like the sound of your whistle
i like the way you wear your grin
i even like the taste of my will caving in.
i'm not a junkie for your love i'm not a junkie
i'm not a junkie for your love i'm not a junkie
don't tell the captain
don't you tell him what i've done
(keep it coming)
stop.
this is such a sweet collaboration
you got the power i got the shame
funny thing is we both want somebody to blame.
go tell the captain
won't you tell him what i've done.

xvii. busted { matchbox twenty }
Plans: V.
i forget when words were only words
she knows the party makes me nervous
in this stage we can't get hurt
don't try to understand me.
we're too cool to be alone
but not too crazy to get busted.
i found out one life just ain't enough
i need another soul to feed on
i'm the flame i can't get burnt
i'm wholly understated.
i found silence in this space
an on and off again attraction
i need such amazing grace
heaven sweep me away.
love don't change don't come around here
don't wear my heart on your sleeve like a high school letter
don't strain 'cause nothing ever comes from it
and the people we've become
they've never been the people who we are.
i strapped on one horse and prayed for luck
i dug another hole to bleed
i know exactly how this works
i need a new feel dirty.
i don't need you crowding up my space
i just want to get inside you
you can't blame the heart you save
giving something away.
i dreamed that the world was crumbling down
we sat on my back porch and watched it
i dreamed that the buildings all fell down
we sat on my back porch and watched it
in my head I heard the sound
like fifteen strangers dancing
but oh how i want you to know me
oh how i want you to know me
oh how i wish i was somebody else baby
oh how i wish you could own me.

xviii. are you ten years ago { tegan + sara }
Collapse: Evey.
taken i am yours
i'm up and doing circles.
i collapse
i might stay out longer than
i left the light on for you then
if you show you show.
when i feel like this
when i get so into myself
i lose track of where i'm going then
lose track of how to get going again
feel myself slowing down
feel myself turning around
is this taken?
when i feel like this
when i get so sick of myself
where are you going then without me
and not knowing then that we're slowing down
you've got to turn right around
and tell me that I'm taken then
tell me if i'm yours.
you collapse
the pressure of this life is so
you can't be held accountable
if you go you go.
when you act like this
when you get so into yourself
i lose sight of common goals
and letting go so i can be all alone
feel myself going slow
feel myself letting go
not taken
not feeling like i'm yours.
i collapse
this life looks like a sentence though
a constant game of falling short
if you know you know.
when i feel like this when i'm just so sick
of feeling less than perfect
isn't right for me i never fight to see
if coming clean would get to me
i feel myself holding back
i feel the pressure it's finally back
i'm taken.
when you felt like this
when you saw it all come crashing down
subtle but not underground i was there
i saw the signs i saw unfair
and so i wrote to you through other means
i let myself finally feel taken
like i was yours.

xvix. you { r. e. m. }
Love: V.
let the sun beat through the clouds
let me kiss you on the mouth
all my childhood toys with chew marks in my smile
let me hold your syrup close to mine
let me watch you hollywood and vine
and i want you like the movies touch me now.
i love you crazy just keep on
i love you madly just keep watch
you wipe my lips
you turn me on
my attentions are turned to you.
i can whisper in your ear
i can write a calendar year
i can wing around your saturn smile shut out the moon
i walked the tension wire line
and i learned to disrespect the signs
and i want you like a pisces rising even though.
i love you crazy just keep on
i love you madly just keep watch
you wipe my lips
you turn me on
my attentions are turned to you.

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BEGIN AGAIN (SHINING). Good Omens : Crowley/Aziraphale

2008-07-10T18:12:00Z

Fandom: Good Omens.
Subject: Crowley/Aziraphale.
Warnings: Angst. With extra 'ang'.
Notes: If it didn't work out. No commentary at all this time - I'm leaving this one entirely open to interpretation. Artists include Paramore, My Brightest Diamond, Bif Naked, Now It's Overhead, Helium, Sleater-Kinney, Brand New, Placebo, Gorillaz, Poe, and Garbage. Thanks to Twitch for tracks 10, 11, 12, and 19. Source for cover art by taiyou_to_tsuki, who is awesome; used with permission. ALL SONGS IN .MP3 FORMAT.

BEGIN AGAIN (SHINING)
a crowley/aziraphale fanmix

one : in the grass, mary timony.

who hid in the grass where jesus lay?
were they the shepherds of the day?
i was on the bus trying to get off
jamming to the fat boys when i was lost
once i was lost but i never was found
the blind bus driver drives me around
i don't understand what my love couldn't see
couldn't see in me.
who hid in the grass where jesus lay?
the biggest mystery today
a sound 16 down from middle C
that rings through the oceans softly
once i came home to a bag of bones
a pile of trash and a plastic throne
throw your bones out to sea
watch them sink so silently.
even i know the fiery place you can go
even i know the fiery place you can go.

two : stuck on you, paramore.

i heard you driving in my car
then in a frozen bar
and i claimed i didn't care for you
but your verse got trapped inside my head
over and over again
you played yourself to death in me
i thought i'd drop you easily
but that was not to be
you burrowed like a summer tick
so you invade my sleep and confuse my dreams
turn my nights to sleepless itch.
stuck on you 'til the end of time
i'm too tired to fight your rhyme
stuck on you 'til the end of time
you've got me paralyzed.
holding on the telephone
i hear your midrange moan
you're everywhere inside my room
even when i'm alone i hear your mellow drone
you're everywhere inside of me.
i can't escape your incessant whine
when you beam it out all across the sky
no i can't escape
(stuck on you 'til the end of time)
your insipid rhyme
(i'm too tired to fight your rhyme)
when you shoot it deep
(stuck on you 'til the end of time)
straight into my mind.

three : burn, don't freeze! sleater-kinney.

i’d set your heart on fire
but arson is no way
to make a love burn brighter
(when you saw me on that first day
said i’d blossom under your care)
always thought that the devil was the only one
who knew the ins and the outs of the ways of love
so i sold off my heart to see how this would end
now i can’t move an inch for fear it will begin
(wrap me up tight inside your wing
is it safe now is it safe to breathe?)
you come in between me and the darkness
please don’t ever leave
(i force my eyes open and now who has changed?
you look different so different today).
holding your eyes in the hardest stare
running around like you wanted me there
lookin’ at me like i’m the hottest in town
then turnin’ your back when you’re movin’ around
i ain’t gonna listen to you no more
breakin’ outta this place throwin’ open the door
use me up just to fan the flame
but you’ll be sorry as i’m walkin’ away
(backwards forwards going out of my mind
backwards forwards spinning way off time
fire to water fire baby baby’s putting me out).
you’re the truest light i’ve known
but someday i’ll learn i don’t need your fuel to burn
(i’m the one who decides who i am
i’m the one who will shed this old skin)
always thought that hell was the only place
hot enough to melt our hearts into a locked embrace
there’s something so safe about a lack of air
the only way to make sure that you’ll always be there
(i force my eyes open and now who has changed?
i feel different so different today).

four : silver angel, helium.

i am the earth
(it's not something that i know)
i am the dirt
(when to freeze and when to grow)
i had my own birth
(when to stay in and when to go)
and i am your curse
(it's not something that i know).
you came out of the sky like a feather from an angel
i was rubbing my eyes
i know i'm not so wise or half as able as your angel size
love as light as light as a lead dove (fly lightly)
love that fits like a wet glove (fly all night).
it feels like a slide show
(it's not something that I know)
it's more like a freak show
(when to stay in and when to go)
what makes the world go?
(when to freeze and when to grow)
what do i know?
(it's not something that i know).

five : me vs. maradona vs. elvis, brand new.

with one or two i get used to the room
we go slow when we first make our moves
by five or six bring you out to the car
number nine with my head on the bar
and it's sad but true
out of cash and IOUs.
i've got desperate desires and unadmirable plans
my tongue will taste of gin and malicious intent
bring you back to the bar get you out of the cold
a sober straight face gets you out of your clothes
and they're scared that we know
all the crimes they'll commit
who they'll kiss before they get home.
i will lie awake
and lie for fun and fake the way i hold you
let you fall for every empty word i say.
barely conscious in the door where you stand
your eyes are fighting sleep while your mouth makes your demands
you laugh at every word trying hard to be cute
i almost feel sorry for what i'm gonna do
and your hair smells of smoke
who will cast the first stone?
you can sin or spend the night all alone.
brass buttons on your coat hold the cold
in the shape of a heart that they cut out of stone
you're using all your looks that you've thrown from the start
if you let me have my way i swear i'll tear you apart
'cause it's all you can be
you're a drunk and you're scared
it's ladies' night and all the girls drink for free.

six : the ice & the storm, my brightest diamond.

open up your heart to me darling
you're resisting this place you've been dreaming only of it
it's just like i was building up inside darling
we've accumulated too much miscommunication
in the beginning everything is soft but defensive
perhaps we begin again shining
i wanna love you to sleep
i wanna love you to sleep
so nothing is stopping me from receiving from giving out.
i want a storm to blow it out
i wanna shake myself and turn my heart inside out
i want a storm to blow it out
i wanna shake myself and turn my heart inside out.
open up your heart to me now
open
darling you're resisting this place you've been dreaming only of it.
don't you want to let it go?
(darling we've accumulated too much miscommunication)
let it go let it let it let it go
let it go let it let it let it go.

seven : west of the fields, r.e.m.

long gone intuition to assume are gone when we try
dream of a living jungle
in my way back home when we die.
west of the fields west of the fields
west of the fields west of the fields
long gone long gone long gone long gone
west of the fields.
dreams of Elysian to assume are gone when we try
tell now what is dreaming
when we try to listen with your eyes oversimplify.
the animals how strange
try try to stick it in.
dreams of Elysian to assume are gone when we try
tell now what is dreaming when we try
listen to your eyes when we die.

eight : song to say goodbye, placebo.

you are one of god's mistakes
you crying tragic waste of skin
i'm well aware of how it aches
and you still won't let me in
now i'm breaking down your door
to try and save your swollen face
though i don't like you anymore
you lying trying waste of space.
my oh my
a song to say goodbye
a song to say goodbye
a song to say goodbye
a song to say
before our innocence was lost
you were always one of those
blessed with lucky sevens
and a voice that made me cry.
you were mother nature's son
someone to whom i could relate
your needle and your damage done
remains a sordid twist of fate
now i'm trying to wake you up
to pull you from the liquid sky
'cause if i don't we'll both end up
with just a song to say goodbye.

nine : every planet we reach is dead, gorillaz.

i lost my leg like i lost my way
so no loose ends nothing to see me down
how are we going to work this out?
dreams aren't bad i had to admit
i love the girl but god only knows it's
getting harder to see the sun coming through
i love you but what are we going to do?
picture i'm the dreamer
i'll take you deeper
down to the sleepy glow
time is a low
don't you know
what are we going to do?
when you go down
all the sick and selfless days
i want to see you again
i love you but what are we going to do?

ten : truce, dresden dolls.

you can have washington i'll take new jersey
you can have london but i want new york city
i should get providence i've got a job now
los angeles obvious that's where you belong now
you can have africa asia australia
as long as you keep your hands off cafe pamplona
we can split germany right down the middle
you'd hate it there anyway take berlin and we'll call it even.
you can have all of the carry-on baggage
i'll trade the saskia jokes for the alphabet language
on special occasions we'll spit between parents
who forced us to hate them on alternating weekends
you call it over and i call you psycho
significant other
just say we were lovers and we'll call it even
we'll call it even.
i am the ground zero ex-friend you ordered
disguised as a hero to get past your borders
i know when i'm wanted i'll leave if you ask me to
mind my own business and speak when i'm spoken to
i am the tower around which you orbited
i am not proud i am just taking orders
i fall to the groud within hours of impact
i hit back if hit and attack if attacked.
you get route two between concord and lexington
i want mass ave from the square to my apartment
and if we should meet through some misunderstanding
ill be very sweet very patient and forgiving
(now get off my side of the state)
and if we should meet one another in passing
despite these techniques there is sometimes no avoiding
(there must be some kind of mistake)
we'll raise high our white flags and say hi and shake hands
declaring the land we're on unamerican
we'll call it even.
i am the tower around which you orbited
i am not proud i am just taking orders
i fall to the groud within hours of impact
i hit back if hit and attack if attacked
i am an accident waiting to happen
i'm laughing like mad while you strangle the captain
my place may be taken but make no mistake
from a little black black box i can say without shame
that you've lost
do you know what you've lost?
so take whatever you'd like
i'll strike like the states on fire
you won't sleep very tight
no hiding no safe covers
make your bed and now lie
just like you always do
you can fake it for the papers but i'm on to you.

eleven : set the fire to the third bar, snow patrol.

i find the map and draw a straight line
over rivers farms and state lines
the distance from A to where you'd B
it's only finger-lengths that i see
i touch the place where i'd find your face
my fingers in creases of distant dark places
i hang my coat up in the first bar
there is no peace that i've felt so far
the laughter penetrates my silence
as drunken men find flaws in science
their words mostly noises
ghosts with just voices
your words in my memory
are like music to me.
i'm miles from where you are
i lay down on the cold ground
i pray that something picks me up
and sets me down in your warm arms.
after i have travelled so far
we'd set the fire to the third bar
we'd share each other like an island
until exhausted close our eyelids
and dreaming pick up from
the last place we left off
your soft skin is weeping
a joy you can't keep it.

twelve : drowned, youth group.

we were drinking
yeah we started drinking round two
and the air was so heavy
yeah the air was heavy with hopes it couldn't fulfil
this is as good as it gets
hope is all we have left
the pilot plays can't hear a sound
all my optimism's drowned.
yeah i'm drowned
i'm drowned and i don't know why.
the cicadas
yeah the cicadas are ringing in my ears
awake from hibernation
and singing from frustration about being locked up all year.
like a chapter
a concluding chapter that sinks you with its hooks
you know this little city
looks like a city i read about in books.

thirteen : wild, poe.

i go wild 'cause you break me open
wild 'cause you left me here
i go wild.
wild because the chips are down
wild because there isn't anybody else around
wild when the waves start to break
and god knows they're breaking in me now
i go wild because it doesn't make sense
for me to cry out in my own defense
wild because i would do anything
to tear you off your precious fence.
so this is what it's like living in limbo
first i'm high then i'm solo.
i go wild 'cause you break me open
wild 'cause you left me here
i go wild 'cause your promises are broken
wild when I know you're near
i go wild
i go wild.
tell me what you've come here for
moving like a hunter through my back door
leaving the perfume of all you adore
to die nameless on my floor
yeah well we both know you don't play fair
i guess you really think that you get me there
let's be honest perhaps this little ride
is too much for even you to bear.
you've got a lot of nerve to come back here
you're not the only one who can smell fear.
i go wild 'cause you break me open
wild 'cause you left me here
i go wild 'cause your promises are broken
wild don't you get it dear
you're not the only one who lives on instincts
no i've got instincts of my own
you've got a lot of nerve to come back
plan your attack yeah i am still waiting
you wrote the rules to try to contain me
you broke 'em now you have untamed me
i go wild
i go wild.
tell me what you've come for
what is it you adore
won't you tell me
what would you go wild for?
you've got a lot of nerve to come back here
speak up my darling i have been waiting.
(communication is more than just words, communication is architecture,
because of course it is quite obvious that a house which would be built without that will, that desire to communicate, would not look the way your house looks today.)

fourteen : metal heart, garbage.

i wish i had a metal heart i could cross the line
i wish i was half as good as you think i am.
now that we know for sure they're telling lies
when they say no one gets hurt and therefore nobody dies
you know it's hard to believe anything that you hear
they say the world is round.
i wish i was as big as you you'd have to tell the truth
i've been nothing you could hurt nothing you could heal.
i want to be dependable i want to be courageous and good
i want to be faithful so that i can be your woman come true
i want to be a friend you can rely on you can lean on and trust
i want to understand so i can forget and give in to love.
i wish i wasn't flesh and blood i would not be scared
from bullets built with me in mind then i could be safe
sweet lord take care of me for i think i'm done
kiss my mother on her cheek lay my burden down
lay my burden down.

fifteen : one more notch, murder by death.

hole up kid there's a storm comin' down
work those fingers to the bone
you got grit that's a fact
you build 'em up just to knock 'em all down
dig a hole that goes down deep in the ground
and when the time comes crawl in
as the earth all shudders
at the pounding of the feet of the four horsemen.
you aren't safe under the earth
hiding your actions covered in dirt
like a snake shedding its skin
if you 'fess up you can start all over again.
and the whirlwind lifts you up to the ceiling
the balconies pass
but you don't even see them
as they go by
and it whips your bodies higher and higher
when your lips lock
you both catch on fire
the crowd covers their eyes.
you've forgotten everything but yourselves
you don't really even matter to each other
it's the rush that you get when you know you've done wrong
as you bake your bodies separate
but you never notice that the other is burning
you just pity yourself.

sixteen : crushcrushcrush, paramore.

i got a lot to say to you
yeah i got a lot to say
i notice your eyes are always blue to me
keeping them here and it doesn't make sense at all.
they taped over your mouth scribbled out the truth with their lies
your little spies
they taped over your mouth scribbled out the truth with their lies
your little spies.
crush crush crushcrushcrush
nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
trust the one to i was just counting on
that never happens i guess i'm dreaming again
let's be more than this.
if you wanna play it like a game
well come on come on let's play
'cause i'd rather waste my life pretending
than have to forget you for one whole minute.
rock and roll baby don't you know that
we're all alone now i need something to sing about
rock and roll hey don't you know that
we're all alone now i need something to sing about
rock and roll hey don't you know baby
we're all alone now give me something to sing about.

seventeen : religion, bif naked.

suck my mouth suck my pain away
suck my mouth suck my pain away
helplessness i am hard to stain
potentially inappropriate.
i am naked before you
look at me
you came for me i pray to you
you are in me.
you are my religion
you are my religion
i'm loving you
you're loving me.
brutal truth
it is profound
can you hear the sound
of my breath?
suck my mouth suck my pain away
suck my mouth suck my pain away
couldn't help me been here all of my life
perverted love on the other side.
you are my religion
you are my religion
i'm loving you
you're loving me
you are my religion
you are my religion
i'm touching you
you're touching me.
intoxicated with your breath
my eyes close i am a mess
starving and cold and i need your love
you keep me real you lift me up
prayer soft i am in love
devotee of your immortal love.

eighteen : before the dawn, evanescence.

meet me after dark again and i'll hold you
i am nothing more than to see you there.
and maybe tonight
we'll fly so far away
we'll be lost before the dawn.
if only night could hold you and i can see you my love
then let me never ever wake again.
somehow i know that we can't wake again
from this dream it's not real but it's ours.

nineteen : tranquilize, the killers.

time it tells living in my home town
wedding bells they begin easy
live it down baby don’t talk that much
baby knows but baby don’t tease me
in the park we could go walking
drown in the dark or we could go sailing
on the sea
always here always on time
close call was it love or was it just easy
money talks when people need shoes and socks
steady boys i'm thinking she needs me
i was just sipping on something sweet
i don’t need political process.
i got this feeling that they‘re gonna break down the door
i got this feeling they they’re gonna come back for more
see i was thinking that i lost my mind
but it’s been getting to me all this time
and it don’t stop dragging me down.
silently reflection turns my world to stone
patiently correction leaves us all alone
and sometimes i’m a traveling man
but tonight this engine's failing
i still hear the children playing.
kick the can kick the can skip and blackjack
steal a car and ring a round-rosey
rock and roll candyland boogeyman
run away and give me your sneakers.
acid rain when Abel looked up at Cain
we began the weeping and wailing
a hurried high from pestilence pills and pride
it’s a shame we could have gone sailing
but heaven knows heaven knows everything
tranquilize.
i still hear the children playing
dead beat dancers come to us and stay.
'cause i don’t care where you've been
and i don’t care what you've seen
we’re the ones who still believe
and we’re looking for a page
in that lifeless book of hope
where a dream might help you cope
with the Bushes and the bombs
are tranquilized.

twenty : love, love, love (love, love), as tall as lions.

have i ever told you before
i think you're beautiful when you're sleeping
(i have faith you watch me in my slumber too)
if i'm all that you're looking for tell me
why is there a river streaming
(down your face sometimes makes me wonder)
all about your love.
(love love love love love)
after some time it's something i find true
love's not a grave it won't decay on you
too many days i was afraid of love.
what if nothing is just that and
suffering's the only thing we're good at?
dreaming picture that
(a whole world in a slumber)
but don't get too attatched to the living
even every single memory's fleeting
(that's a fact, being torn asunder).
but to my surprise
no reason why
one day i woke up and realized.
give it to me love
i'll keep you in my focus
with love and affection.

twenty-one : antidote, now it's overhead.

forked tongue venom cold in my veins
overtaking
forked tongue venom cold in my veins
overtaking.
antidote break open truth
word for word take
antidote break open truth
word for word take.
when my final sun has set
if you're staring up at it
i wanna know
i hope i go out as i came in.
when i'm burning through the clouds
and the rain is falling out
i wanna know
i hope i go out as i came in.

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WE WILL ARISE. Young Avengers/Runaways (Civil War) : General

2008-07-10T03:16:08Z

Fandom: Young Avengers/Runaways - Civil War.
Subject: General.
Warnings: Extreme tardiness.
Notes: Now that another YA/Runaways crossover's come out, I figured it was time to put this one up. Artists include R.E.M., Sleater-Kinney, the Get Up Kids, Go Betty Go, Metric, They Might Be Giants, and The Decemberists. ALL SONGS ARE IN .MP3 FORMAT.







WE WILL ARISE:
A Young Avengers/Runaways XFST.


00. All Senses Interlude - Piebald

	There's nothing quite like fighting for your life on a daily basis to get you into a rut.


01. Not Me - Stranger Spirits

	The Young Avengers: they don't take shit.

		most of us want to belong
		& the rest of us just feel alone
		some people get saved & some people get spent
		& some people would rather be dead than be different
			NOT ME i'm not gonna go hiding
			running away & wondering "where's my heart at?"
			i don't wanna be i don't wanna be like that
			NOT ME i'm not your reflection ooh
			i'm gonna push 'til i break through
			i don't wanna be i don't wanna be like you


02. Sad State Of Affairs - Descendents

	The Runaways: they don't give a shit.

		look at things hard enough until they go away
		but they're still there aren't they? . . .
			it's such a sad state of affairs
			& i don't care
			a sad state of affairs
			this place could use a little repair
			& i don't care


03. Reverse - Now It's Overhead

	Chase is being a bastard, but for an admittedly legitimate reason.

		draw the curtains tight in a bitter room
		in a lonely fit of certainty they're onto you
		not any sudden moves
		don't remember when but along the line
		tunnel vision one solution crept up
		you're holding out for love . . .
			reverse (they're closing in on every other side)
			reverse (they're closing in on every other side)




04. !Paranoia! Cha-Cha-Cha - The Soviettes

	You know how it is. Government people love frying cuddly robots.

		they tell ya look out on the street they tell ya
		they tell ya look out on the street they tell ya
		they tell ya look out on the street
		they tell ya suspect all of the kids you meet yeah
			seems like you wanna be shut
			i'd say you're gonna be shut
			they say you gotta be shut down


05. Far Away - Sleater-Kinney

	The Vision watches way too much television. The Young Avengers are hit in their comrade bones.

		& the sky overhead
		is silent waiting
		clear blue holds its breath
		& the heart is hit
		in a city far away
		but it feels so close
			don't breathe the air today
			don't speak of why you're afraid
			WHY CAN'T I GET ALONG
			WHY CAN'T I GET ALONG
			WHY CAN'T I GET ALONG WITH YOU?


06. Doctor Evil - They Might Be Giants

	I'm assuming here that the Warden has a degree.

		evil
		evil is his one and only name
		evil
		in his mind there is no other game
			when your name is evil
			bad is good
			or so you think
			but you're so very wrong
			it's evil
			but being wrong is right
			so then you're good again
			which is the evillest thing of all


07. Wish I May - Ani DiFranco

	Noh-Varr: he's pretty fucked up.

		i'm losing my love of adventure
		i'm losing all respect
		for me and myself tonight
		i wonder what happens if i get to
		the end of this tunnel
		and there isn't a light
		i've worn down the treads
		on all of my tires
		i've worn through the elbows
		and the knees of my clothing
		and i'm stumbling down
		the gravel driveway of desire
		trying not to wake up
		my sleepy self-loathing
			do you ever have that dream
			when you open your mouth
			and you try to scream
			but you can't make a sound?
			that's everyday starting now
			that's everyday starting now


08. Pop Song 89 - R.E.M.

	Robot meets robot. Robots have spastic 'splodo fits. Non-robots vehemently discuss the government.

		hello how are you i know you i knew you
		i think i can remember your name
		hello i'm sorry i lost myself
		i think i thought you were someone else
			should we talk about the weather?
			should we talk about the government?


09. Cannonball - The Breeders

	Who was that brainwashed alien?

		Spitting in a wishing well
		Blown to hell crash
		I'm the last splash . . .
			I know you little libertine
			I know you're a cannonball
			I'll be your whatever you want
			The bong in this reggae song


10. Lion & The Lamb - The Get Up Kids

	Okay, fuck this. Let's go get our gays.

		i've never been one for war
		sand was sinkin' in as thick as oil
			lion & the lamb
			they're all gone
			they're all gone
			slaughter the lion & the lamb
			for our home
			for our home . . .
				what have we become?


11. Monster Hospital - Metric

	Watching the one you love get prodded and ripped at with sharp things . . . you get pissed. Really. Fast.

		monster hospital
		can you please release me
		you hold my hands down
		i've been bad
		you hold my arms down
		i've been bad
		i've been bad
		i've been bad . . .
			i fought the war
			i fought the war i fought the war
			but the war won
			i fought the war
			i fought the war i fought the war
			but the war won
			stop for the love of god
			i fought the war
			i fought the war but the war won


12. Born To Fight - Tracy Chapman

	Man, these fuckers kick some fucking ass.

		they're tryin' to take away my pride
		by strippin' me of everything i own
		they're tryin' to hurt me inside
		and make me into a white man's drone
			but oh no this one's not for sale
			'cause i was born to fight
			i ain't been knocked down yet
			i was born to fight
			i'm the surest bet
			there ain't no man no woman no beast alive
			who can beat me
			'cause i'm born to fight


13. You're Your Worst Enemy - Go Betty Go

	HAHA CRAZY MAN. ENJOY YOUR BONDAGE LOLS.

		your worst enemy (you are)
		your worst enemy (you are)
		your worst enemy (you are)
		i can't help but think
		your worst enemy (you are)
		your worst enemy (you are)
		your worst enemy (you are)
		so why don't you let me be?
			you think you can change if you wanted to
			you're stuck you see
			if you think you are fine it's just a lie
			you're selfish as can be
			and in the end
			you're like the rest
			you're lost at sea
			and the storm you feared
			is only you
			so let it be
			and let go of me!


14. Get Up - Sleater-Kinney

	Noh-Varr: he's still fucked up, but . . . less so.

		and when the body finally starts to let go
		let it all go at once
		not piece by piece
		but like a whole bucket of stars
		dumped into the universe
		whooh! watch it go!
		goodbye small hands goodbye small heart
		goodbye small head
		my soul is climbing tree trunks & swinging from every branch . . .
			do you think i'm an animal?
			am i not?
			do you like fur?
			are we captive only for a short time? . . .
				i hit the mark
				i target moon i target sky i target sun
				fall down on the world
				fall down on the world
				fall down on the world before it falls on 

you


15. Sons & Daughters - The Decemberists

	Take up your arms. We will arise.

		when we arrive sons & daughters
		we'll make our homes on the water
		we'll build our walls of aluminum
		we'll fill our mouths with cinnamon now
			these currents pull us 'cross the border
			steady your boats arms to shoulder
			'til tides all pull our hull aground
			making this cold harbour now home
				take up your arms sons & daughters
				we will arise from the bunkers
				by land by sea by dirigible
				we'll leave our tracks untraceable now
			when we arrive sons & daughters
			we'll make our homes on the water
			we'll build our walls of aluminum
			we'll fill our mouths with cinnamon now
		hear all the bombs they fade away
		hear all the bombs they fade away
		hear all the bombs they fade away
		hear all the bombs they fade away . . .


00. Endgame - R.E.M.

	La-da-da-da-da da da da da. (Translation: Uneasy truce and the end of this mix. Worship me.)


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HOLDING ON TO OUR PRIDE. Discworld (Monstrous Regiment) : General

2008-05-12T16:14:40Z

Fandom: Discworld (Monstrous Regiment)
Subject: General (entire novel).
Warnings: Extensive spoilers.
Notes: For the gorgeous genderpolitical gals of the Cheesemongers. Contains character and incident songs, more or less following the plot. Apologies for the repeat artists, but at some point it became unavoidable. 30 songs, plus a bonus/alternate track; artists include Amy Ray, Sleater-Kinney, R.E.M., Bishop Allen, Alanis Morissette, U2, The Decemberists, KT Tunstall, Tegan & Sara, and Franz Ferdinand. ALL SONGS IN .MP3 FORMAT.

HOLDING ON TO OUR PRIDE: MONSTROUS REGIMENT.

1. When The War Came - The Decemberists For Nuggan! For glory! For a hard-boiled egg!
"There was always a war."
a terrible autonomy
has grafted onto you & me
our trust put in the government
they told their lies as heaven-sent
'til the war came
'til the war came
& the war came with a curse & a caterwaul
& the war came with all the poise of a cannonball
& they're picking out our eyes by coal & candlelight
when the war came the war came hard

2. Opener - Piebald Polly.
"Little details . . . get remembered, as undirected white-hot rage fills the mind."
if you don't want to know
why'd you ask with phrases slow
you hear too much still want it all
listen to the writing on the wall
greek alphabet can ruin days
off a tongue that swills and sways
into ears that must digest
the mind is forced to clean up the mess

3. I Don't Sleep, I Dream - R.E.M. Mal.
"I am a reformed vampire, which is to say, I am a bundle of suppressed instincts held together with spit & coffee."
i'm pitching for a new direction
pinch me when i wake
don't tell me my dreams are fake
you leave me to lay & touch me deep
i don't sleep i dream
i'd settle for a cup of coffee but you know what i really need

4. We Didn't Do It - Tegan + Sara Strappi.
"We're fighting for what's ours, men!"
we didn't do it for the money
we didn't do it for the money
i don't know why
we didn't do it for the money
we didn't do it for the money
i don't care why
you'll go down down down. . . .
we didn't do it to be happy
we didn't do it to be happy
so i can whine

5. Seven Seas Of Rhye - Queen The El-Tee.
"I foolishly dreamed of a world where everyone would one day wear a Blouse. Or eat one, possibly."
storm the master marathon i'll fly through
by flash & thunderfire i'll survive
(i'll survive i'll survive)
then i'll defy the laws of nature
& come out alive
begone with you you shod & shady senators
leave out the good give out the bad evil cries
i challenge the mighty titan & his troubadors
& with a smile
i'll take you to the seven seas of rhye

6. Hand Me Down World - The Guess Who Losing the war (& a few illusions).
"We're supposed to be the finest army in the world. That's what we're told."
anybody here see the noise see the fear & commotion?
i think we missed it
anybody here see the love see the hate be in motion?
don't give me no hand me down shoes
don't give me no hand me down love
don't give me no hand me down world
i got one already

7. Other Side Of The World - KT Tunstall Shufti.
"I'm going to the war & I'm going to find him!"
all the muscles tighten in her face
buries her soul in one embrace
they're one & the same
just like water
& the fire fades away
most of every day
is full of tired excuses
but it's too hard to say
i wish it were simple
but we give up easily
you're close enough to see that
you're the other side of the world to me

8. Clementines - Bishop Allen All us girls.
"I thought, I wonder how they'll do when they find out they're not alone?"
& i know we both had enough
drinking from this broken cup
that we neither feel too much
more like sharing
but again boys to your feet
one last time on benefit street
set aside these worried lives
you've been bearing
though the years have been unkind
like a winter clementine
we can only come of age
in the cold
& what small comfort we might take
that we've both been born to break
leaves us humble keeps us honest
& bold

9. My Brain Created A Thing - Stranger Spirits Igor(ina).
"I'm not going to be sent home like a package. Anyway, that man has an objectionable bone structure."
my brain created a thing
when i hooked it to the machines
& it sounded just like a [SCREAM]
from where the metal in the bars can ring
when the needle on the meter was pegged
it started moving all its arms & its legs
& it rose up & shouted out loud
& it sounded like the roar of a crowd

10. The Soldiering Life - The Decemberists Sergeant Jackrum.
"The grin of Sergeant Jackrum was a crescent of blood, his coat the colour of a battlefield sky."
you were a brick bag a bowery tough so rough
they culled you from a cartoon
pulled out of your pantaloons
but you my brother in arms
i'd rather i'd lose my limbs than let you come to harm
& you my bombazine doll
the bullets may singe your skin & the mortars may fall
but i i never felt so much life
than tonight hidden in the trenches
gazing on the battlefield our rifles blaze away
we blaze away

11. Something Of An End - My Brightest Diamond Wazzer, 1 of 2.
"I used to be beaten."
when you came jumping down the stairs
screaming bloody awful
you woke up god & everyone
screaming bloody awful
so they took you to the doctor
he said "yeah it's a bad one
& it's such a shame about it
'cause she's so pretty"

12. Sunday Bloody Sunday - U2 What the newsman brings.
"It's the truth. . . . There is no one on your side. You are alone."
i can't believe the news today
oh i can't close my eyes & make it go away
how long how long must we sing this song?
how long how long?
'cause tonight we can be as one tonight
broken bottles under children's feet
bodies strewn across the dead-end street
but i won't heed the battle call
it puts my back up puts my back up against the wall

13. My Generation (Live) - Patti Smith Tonker.
"Secondhand clothes & an air of nervousness that didn't quite conceal some bubbling anger."
people try to put us down
just because we g-g-g-get around
i don't need that fuckin' shit
hope i die because of it
my generation

14. This Fire - Franz Ferdinand Lofty.
"Tilda frightens me when she gets her hands on a pair of matches."
eyes
burning a way to me
overwhelm
destroying so sweetly
now
there is a fire in me
a fire that burns
fire that burns
this fire is out of control
i'm gonna burn this city
burn this city
if this fire is out of control
then i
i'm out of control
& i burn

15. Forgiven - Alanis Morissette Wazzer, 2 of 2.
"Look up from those depths into the only smile you ever saw."
what i learned i rejected but i believe again
i'll suffer the consequence of this inquisition
if i jump in this fountain will i be forgiven?
we all had delusions in our heads
we all had our minds made up for us
we had to believe in something
so we did

16. Heal Over - KT Tunstall Out of the Gray House.
"They held hands tightly, like someone who has slipped over a cliff would hold hands with a rescuer, fearing that to let go would be to fall away."
don't hold on but don't let go
i know it's so hard
you've got to try to trust yourself
i know it's so hard so hard
come over here lady
let me wipe your tears away
come a little nearer lady
'cause you'll heal over
heal over
heal over someday

17. Late Bloom - Amy Ray Polly comes to certain conclusions.
"You've got a sword now, haven't you? Fight back!"
they ran us out of town
oh come on they cut us down
raise the flag of the fealty
oh my life of futility
i know we grow when it's over
all that time
that you were walking the line
i don't mind
'cause now i know

18. 40' - Franz Ferdinand Mal loses it.
"I was holding on so tight! I was doing so well!"
as i glance once upon the foam
40' beneath my feet
the coldest calm falls
through the molten veins
cooling all the blood to slush
that congeals around the brain
la la la
40' REMAIN

19. Modern Girl - Sleater-Kinney Gender (& other) confessions.
"If you want trouble, you want to tangle with the lioness."
my baby loves me i'm so angry
anger makes me a modern girl
took my money i couldn't buy nothing
i'm sick of this brave new world
my whole life is like a picture of a sunny day
my whole life is like a picture of a sunny day

20. Walking With A Ghost - Tegan + Sara Into the Keep; into a crypt; Wazzer's little voices.
"Underneath her reedy little tone was a shadow voice, a whisper that filled and refilled the long rooms."
i was walking with a ghost
i said please please don't insist
i was walking with a ghost
i said please please don't insist
no matter which way you go
no matter which way you stay
you're out of my mind
out of my mind

21. Sister Blister - Alanis Morissette Polly vs. Tonker.
"It doesn't have to go this way. You don't have to let a pair of socks do the talking."
you & me were cut from the same cloth
it seems to some we famously get along
but you & me are strangers to each other
'cause you & me competitive to the bone
such tragedy to trample on each other
with how much we've endured
with the state this land is in
& you & me feel joined by only gender
we are not all for one & one for all

22. Welcome To The Occupation - R.E.M. Soldiers, women, captives.
"Are you frightened? Of a bunch of girls?"
here we stand and here we fight
all your fallen heroes
held and dyed and skinned alive
listen to the congress fire
offering the educated
primitive and loyal
welcome to the occupation
hang your collar up inside
hang your freedom higher
listen to the buyer still
listen to the Congress
where we propagate confusion
primitive and wild
fire on the hemisphere below

23. Fortunate Son - Creedence Clearwater Revival No more lying, no more caving.
"Right now I don't want to put any trousers on because then I'd be a woman
dressed up as a man dressed up as a woman dressed up as a man, and then I'd be so
confused I won't know how to swear."
some folks inherit star-spangled eyes
ooh they'll send you down to war
& when you ask 'em "how much should we give"
the only answer's "more more more"
it ain't me
it ain't me
i ain't no military son
it ain't me
it ain't me
i ain't no fortunate one

24. Good To Know That If I Ever Need Attention All I Have To Do Is Die - Brand New
Court-martial.
"A splendid effort. But, sadly, the world we live in has certain . . . rules, you understand?"
am i correct to defend the fist that holds this pen?
it's ink that lies the pen the page the paper
i live i learn you will always take what i have earned
so aid my end while i believe i'm winning
our friends speak out in our defense
i pay ten deaf ears for two months' rent
we burn the gallows they erect
& cut the nooses they tie for our necks

25. On Your Honor - Amy Ray Jackrum & all the lads.
"What is there left about you that I don't know?"
my father's house is a house of regret
rooms i can't sleep in jokes i don't get
well you're on your honour to be on my side
surely there are some things that won't be denied
yeah i'm here to relieve
the ones who fought for you & fought for me
yeah i'm here to relate
put away your hate
put away your hate

26. Jenny - Sleater-Kinney The Duchess.
"You all kissed the Duchess. . . . Did you think that it meant nothing? That it was just a kiss?"
do you see her face
when she's gone
sometimes so bright
your heart just stops
did she answer you
your other half
you know they say
she comes just once
i am the girl
i am the ghost
i am the wife
i am the one

27. Let It Be Me - Indigo Girls Making peace & going home.
"There was no such thing as a fairy-tale ending, but sometimes you could threaten to kick the handsome prince in the ham-and-eggs."
sticks & stones battle zones
a single light bulb on a single thread for the black
sirens wail history fails
rose-colored glass begins to age & crack
while the politicians shadowbox the power ring
in an endless split decision never solve anything
from a neighbor's distant land i heard the strain of the common man
let it be me . . .
if the world is night
shine my life like a light

28. Like A Song - U2 Return to war.
"The same old stuff. . . . The same old words. The same old croakings of long-dead soldiers, inviting the living to join them."
& we love to wear a badge a uniform
& we love to fly a flag
but i won't let others live in hell
as we divide against each other
& we fight amongst ourselves
too set in our ways to try to rearrange
too right to be wrong in this rebel song
let the bells ring out
is there nothing left?
is honesty what you want?

29. Let It Ring - Amy Ray Moving forward.
"The enemy wasn't men, or women, or the old, or even the dead. It was just bleedin' stupid people, who came in all varieties."
as i wander through this valley
in the shadow of my doubting
i will not be discounted
so let it ring
you can cite the need for wars
call us infidels or whores
either way we'll be your neighbour
so let it ring

30. Ballad Of A Ladyman - Sleater-Kinney Last words.
"And the new day was a great big fish."
they say i've gone too far with the image i've got &
they know i'd make a mint with a new plastic skin
& a hit on the radio!
temptations of a LADYMAN
i could be demure like girls who are soft for
boys who are fearful of getting an earful
but i gotta rock!
i'd rather be a LADYMAN
are we holding on
to our pride a bit too long?
are we breaking on guitars?
are we breaking you apart?
how many times will you decide?
how many lives will you define?
how much control should we give up of our lives?

BONUS:
Whisper - Evanescence
Lyrically, it fits Mal's breakdown better . . . but Evanescence and Monstrous Regiment . . . well, make your own decision.
catch me as i fall
say you're here and it's all over now
speaking to the atmosphere
no one's here and i fall into myself
this truth drives me
into madness
i know i can stop the pain
if i will it all away
if i will it all away
don't turn away
(don't give in to the pain)
don't try to hide
(though they're screaming your name)
don't close your eyes
(god knows what lies behind them)
don't turn out the light
(never sleep never die)

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I'M NOT SCARED. Runaways : Chase/Victor

2008-05-05T15:48:39Z

Fandom: Runaways.
Subject: Chase/Victor.
Warnings: Spoilers for all of Brian K. Vaughan's run. Also robophilia.
Note: a mix for the lonely boys of the runaways. begins at the end of the New Pride arc. bands include Metric, Mary Timony, Nirvana, Brand New, R.E.M., Cream, and Go Betty Go. ALL SONGS IN .MP3 FORMAT.







I'M NOT SCARED: A CHASE/VICTOR MIX.


1. tautou . . . brand new
Sink.

I'm sinking like a stone in the sea,
I'm burning like a bridge for your body


2. paint it black . . . vanessa carlton
In mourning. Chase's POV.

I see a red door and I want it painted black
No colors anymore I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes

I see a line of cars and they are painted black
with flowers and my love both never to come back
I see people turn their heads and quickly look away
Like a new born baby it just happens every day

I look inside myself and see my heart is black
I see my red door and it's heading into black
Maybe then I'll fade away and not have to face the facts
It's not easy facing up when your whole world is black

I wanna see it painted painted, painted black, oh baby
I wanna see it painted painted, painted black, oh baby

No more will my green sea go turn a deeper blue
I could not foresee this thing happening to you
If I look hard enough into the setting sun
My love will laugh with me until the morning comes


3. strange brew . . . cream
Nico. Victor's POV.

Strange brew, kill what's inside of you

She's a witch of trouble in electric blue
In her own mad mind she's in love with you
With you
Now what you gonna do?
Strange brew, kill what's inside of you.

She's some kind of demon messing in the glue
If you don't watch out it'll stick to you
To you
What kind of fool are you?
Strange brew, kill what's inside of you.

On a boat in the middle of a raging sea
She would make a scene for it all to be
Ignored
And wouldn't you be bored?
Strange brew, kill what's inside of you.


4. love is a place . . . metric
Nico and Victor. Chase's POV.

there’s spring in the air
they’re sweeping the streets
wind is a breeze 
the sun becomes her he agrees
what’s holding up her face? 
nothing but blue skies
passage ways to windows
that don’t close

where do you live?
love is a place
where are you from?
She says, ask yourself ask anyone
what’s holding up her face 
nothing but blue skies
passage ways the mind’s eye
contemplates


5. no son of mine . . . genesis
Victor learns about Chase's dad. Chase's POV.

Well the key to my survival
was never in much doubt
the question was how I could keep sane
trying to find a way out

Things were never easy for me
peace of mind was hard to find
and I needed a place where I could hide
somewhere I could call mine

I didn't think much about it
til it started happening all the time
soon I was living with the fear everyday
of what might happen that night

I couldn't stand to hear the
crying of my mother
and I remember when
I swore that, that would be the
Last they'd see of me
And I never went home again

they say that time is a healer
and now my wounds are not the same
I rang the bell with my heart in my mouth
I had to hear what he'd say


6. come as you are . . . nirvana
Chase loses it. Chase's POV.

Come as you are, as you were 
As I want you to be 
As a friend, as a friend 
As an old enemy 
Take your time, hurry up 
Choice is yours, don't be late 
Take a rest as a friend 
As an old
Memoria

Come doused in mud, soaked in bleach 
As I want you to be 
As a trend, as a friend
As an old
Memoria

And I swear that I don't have a gun 
No, I don't have a gun, no, I don't have a gun


7. hard times are hard! . . . mary timony
Animosity. Chase's POV.

Hard times are hard to forget. 
None of us want evil friends, 
but when something mean is done to someone else, 
who will not remember it? 
Something you just said hurts inside my head,
out on the lawn, under the bridge quietly. 
People like you and people like me
should just agree to disagree

This day has been the longest day I can ever remember.
Why don't you remember me,
I'll remember you, if you want me to.
Something you just said hurts inside my head. 
Out on the beach, in the kitchen everyday.
It's people like you, with a serpent's tongue
that poison everyone.
Eye for an eye. A tooth for my youth.
Good bye for goodbye.


8. the brightest bulb has burned out . . . less than jake (feat. billy bragg)
Friendship. Variable POV.

Chase:
You told me that your 20 years have gone by much too fast
And you’ve been hoping this year will be better than the last
You said you’ve been waging a war against the loneliest of nights
With the strongest drinks and longest lines
It’s not that big a surprise
That you’re feeling more dead than alive
You’re feeling more dead than alive

So I’ll let you know
If you need, somewhere to go
I’ll be listening when you call
And I’ll be there if you fall off
If you need someone to believe in you,
I’ll let you know I will

Victor:
You said the hole in your head
Has gotten bigger than the hole in your chest
And you’re stuck between the past and present tense
You said you’ve been waging a war against so many years of lies
With stronger drinks and longer lines
It’s not that big a surprise
That you’re feeling more dead than alive
You’re feeling more dead than alive


9. busted heart . . . bishop allen
Gradually recovering, Chase looks at Victor's ass a lot and feels bad. Chase's POV.

Follow me
To the shipwreck shores 
Of a dark and strange country
I was born
A stranger thinking out loud
In a foreign tongue
I was out of place
I was looking all around
Just a trying to find a friendly face
But they're all gone

And did you ever think
Did you ever think, think:
Lotta people everyday who will surely drown?
And did you ever think
Did you ever think, think:
Who left me all alone in this town?

And a busted heart
Is a welcome friend
And when that heart leaves
What will you do then?
And if I cry
Is that a sin?

And wisdom is a whisper
And I'm trying to understand
What I say, what I think, where I sleep, when I breathe
What I do with my hands


10. c'mon . . . go betty go
Apologies. Chase's POV.

Next weekend so suddenly
I try to see the mates
but I have changed
I tried to tell you everything
I guess I wasn't right
and now it's just too late

C'mon, c'mon
that's not what I said
believe, believe
what I meant

All my friends have come and gone
it's like my past erased
and traveled into space
and logically I'm confused
I'm turning to you was
my best solution

C'mon, c'mon
that's not what I said (not what I said)
believe, believe
what I meant (what I meant)
Ease up, ease up
and life will get better (life will get better)
enjoy, enjoy
it's all okay

Today I've come to choose my ways
I've seen it all before
I thought it wasn't so
that you will always hide
even when it's not
intended to be that way, that way
1 2 Betty Go!

With all of the thing that I've thrown in your face
It only caused you pain
I have to go now it doesn't make much sense
It's all that I've got left


11. all hands on the bad one . . . sleater-kinney
Catholic guilt. Victor's POV.

You can't get to heaven in a silver spoon
You can polish everything
Except for the mark on you

Come be the first in line
To shake the hand of mine
(They call you out and up)

All hands on the bad one
We would be no better

You can't get to heaven in your Sunday best
When the night before
They were calling it your cocktail dress

You can't get to heaven with a three chord song
They called you a sinner
But the people want to sing along


12. it's you . . . michelle branch
Secrets. Victor's POV.

If tomorrow never comes 
I would want just one thing 
I would sell it to the stars and sun 
I would let it for the world to see 
And it's you 
The light changes when you're in the room 
Oh it's you 

If tomorrow never comes 
I would want just one wish 
To kiss your quiet mouth 
Trace the steps of my fingertips


13. soul . . . matchbox twenty
Healing the wounds.

Hang out your window
Over my head
Stare at your feelings
To see where they end 
You're waiting here
For someone else to break you
From the inside
You've been so composed
But we all know there's

Always something
Tearing you apart
Always so much longer
Than you counted on
It hits you so much harder
Than you thought
But you don't worry
Don't worry 
Cuz you got soul

You're so heavy
You're so misunderstood
I spent all my wishes
Wishing times were good
When I still could
Wait around here
For someone else to take me
Past the good side
At it for so long
You don't show there's 
Always something tearing you apart


14. animal . . . r.e.m.
Answers. Victor's POV.

Hey what's the big deal?
Tell me how to feel
I know where we boomeranged and fell from grace.
Point me to the stars I'm up for the chase.
I know where we fell on our face.
Jump with me.
You jump with me.

Hey, what's the big deal?
I'm an animal.
(The answer landed on my rooftop, whoa.
The future and the truth on my rooftop, whoa.
It's calling me to work it out;
It's calling me to work it out.)

I don't wanna boomerang.
I don't wanna cannonball.
I'm not angling.
I don't want to fall.
Tell me I'm the anchor of my own ascension.
Tell me I'm a tourist in the 4th dimension.

I am vibrating at the speed of light.
Take my hand, we'll wind up the night.
Spin me, win me, lift me, kiss me.
Trip me, trust me, cuss me, judge me.
touch me now.
you take my hand.
you trust me now
you understand.

I am vibrating at the speed of light.


15. i'm so excited . . . le tigre
Robo-lovin'.

Tonight's the night,
Tonight we're gonna

Tonight's the night we're gonna make it happen
(Tonight we're gonna.)
Tonight we'll put all other things aside
(Tonight we're gonna gonna gonna.)
Give in this time and show me some affection
(Give in and show us some.)
We're going for those pleasures in the night
(Tonight, tonight.)

I want to love you, do you,
Wrap myself around you.
I want to squeeze you, please you,
I just can't get enough.
And if you move real slow, I'll let it go

I'm so excited, I just can't hide it,
I'm about to lose control and I think I like it.
I'm so excited, I just can't hide it,
I know, I know, I know, I want to.

We shouldn't even think about tomorrow
(I know, I know, I know.)
Sweet memories will last a long long time
(I know, I know, I know.)
We'll have a good time baby don't you worry
(I know, I know.)
And if we're still hangin' around well that's just fine.

Let's get excited,
(Look what you do to me,)
That we just can't hide it.
(You've got me burnin' up.)
I'm about to lose control and I think I like it.
I'm so excited,
(How did you get to me?)
I just can't hide it
(How 'bout you give it up?)
I know, I know, I know, I want you, I want you.

I want to love you, do you,
Wrap myself around you.
I want to squeeze you, please you,
I just can't get enough.
And if you move real slow, I'll let it go

I'm so excited
(Look what you do to me)
I just can't hide it,
(You've got me burning up)
I'm about to lose control and I think I like it,
I'm so excited,
(Look what you do to me)
I just can't hide it 
(Why won't you give it up?)
And I know, I know, I know, I want you, I want you.


16. electrolite . . . r.e.m.
Flying. Chase's POV.

Your eyes are burning holes through me.
I'm gasoline.
I'm burnin' clean.
Twentieth century go to sleep.
You're plasticine.
That is obscene.
That is obscene.

You are the star tonight.
Your sun electric, outta sight.
Your light eclipsed the moon tonight.
Elecrolite. You're outta sight.

If I ever want to fly.
Mulholland Drive.
I am alive.
Hollywood is under me.
I'm Martin Sheen
I'm Steve McQueen
I'm Jimmy Dean

If you ever want to fly.
Mulholland Drive.
Up in the sky.
Stand on a cliff and look down there.
Don't be scared, you are alive.
You are alive.

Twentieth century go to sleep.
Really deep.
We won't blink
You're eyes are burnin' holes through me.
I'm not scared
I'm outta here.
I'm not scared.
I'm outta here.

.zip with cover art, .mp3 files, and liner notes
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Individual song uploads

2008-05-02T14:47:20Z

Please comment if taking - this took me ages.

A
Alanis Morissette - Right Through You
Amy Ray - On Your Honor
Avril Lavigne (feat. Lil Mama) - Girlfriend (Dr. Dre Remix)

B
Big Brother & The Holding Company (with Janis Joplin) - Turtle Blues
Bikini Kill - Rebel Girl
Bishop Allen - Click Click Click Click
Brand New - Failure By Design
The Breeders - Do You Love Me Now?
The Butchies - Send Me You

C
Cadallaca - The Trouble With Public Places
Cardigans - I Need Some Fine Wine, And You, You Need To Be Nicer
Chuck Prophet - What Makes The Monkey Dance
The Clarks - Born Too Late
Coheed & Cambria - Three Evils (Embodied in Love & Shadow)
Collective Soul - Run
Cream - Strange Brew

D
Death Cab For Cutie - The Sound Of Settling
The Decemberists - 16 Military Wives

E
Eminem - Lose Yourself
The Epoxies - Bathroom Stall
Everclear - Everything To Everyone
Exmembers - Into The Night

F
Fashion Design - Longsleeves
Finger Eleven - Paralyzer
Franz Ferdinand - 40'
The Future Kings Of Nowhere - 10 Simple Murders

G
Garbage - Androgyny
Garbage - Temptation Waits
Go Betty Go - You're Your Worst Enemy
Gorillaz - Dare
Gorillaz - 19-2000 (Soulchild Remix)
Gravy Train!!!! - Hella Nervous
The Guess Who - Hand Me Down World

H
Helium - Pat's Trick

I
I Am Kloot - Twist
Indigo Girls - Jonas & Ezekiel

J
Jenny Lewis & The Watson Twins - Melt Your Heart
Joan Baez - I Am A Poor Wayfaring Stranger
Joe Anderson - Happiness Is A Warm Gun (Across The Universe OST)
Johnny Winter - Rock And Roll, Hoochie Koo

K
KT Tunstall - Heal Over

L
Le Tigre - On The Verge
Lene Marlin - How Would It Be
Lily Allen - Smile
Live - I Alone

M
Mary Timony - Hard Times Are Hard!
Matchbox Twenty - You're So Real
Mavis Staples - Turn Me Around
Metric - Succexy

N
The Never - Antarctica
The Never - Cavity
Nirvana - Lithium
Northern State - Girl For All Seasons
Now It's Overhead - Wait In A Line

O
October Project - After The Fall

P
P!nk - Fingers
Patti Smith - Gloria
Piebald - Haven't Tried It
Poe - Angry Johnny
Poe - Not A Virgin

Q
Queen - Death On Two Legs (Dedicated To . . .)
Queen Latifah - U.N.I.T.Y.

R
R.E.M. - Exhuming McCarthy
R.E.M. - Living Well Is The Best Revenge
R.E.M. - Mr. Richards
Regina Spektor - On The Radio
Rilo Kiley - More Adventurous
The Rocket Summer - Brat Pack
Rooney - Blueside
RX Bandits - Analog Boy

S
Sleater-Kinney - Everything
Sleater-Kinney - Night Light
Sleater-Kinney - Step Aside
Sleater-Kinney - You're No Rock-'n'-Roll Fun
Stevie Ray Vaughan & Double Trouble - Crossfire

T
Tegan & Sara - Like O, Like H
They Might Be Giants - I Should Be Allowed To Think
Tracy Chapman - Born To Fight

V
Van Morrison - Wild Night
Vanessa Carlton - Unsung
Voltaire - When You're Evil

FIGHTING & FREE. Runaways : Xavin

2008-04-30T17:39:31Z

Fandom: Runaways.
Subject: Xavin.
Warnings: Tranny fabness. And anti-Nico sentiment.
Note: A mix for the badass trans lesbian Skrull of the Runaways crew. Artists include Queen, Sleater-Kinney, Cream, Cardigans, KT Tunstall, and R.E.M. ALL SONGS IN .MP3 FORMAT.

fighting & free: a xavin fanmix.

01. We Will Rock You. {Queen.}
Xavin: Alien. Tranny. Hothead. Hottie.
buddy you're a young man hard man
shouting in the street
gonna take on the world someday
you got blood on your face
big disgrace
waving your banner all over the place.

02. Sunshine Of Your Love. {Cream.}
Hey, even aliens get horny.
it's getting near dawn
when lights close their tired eyes
i'll soon be with you my love
to give you my dawn surprise
i'll be with you darling soon
i'll be with you when the stars start falling.
i've been waiting so long
to be where i'm going
in the sunshine of your love.

03. What's Mine Is Yours. {Sleater-Kinney.}
Karolina breaks down. Xavin hovers maternally while somehow maintaining indignance cred.
sit down honey
let's kill some time
rest your head on
this heart of mine
tell me honey
'cause you look so blue
just how did they
did they get to you? . . .
your desks are too heavy and your walls are too white
your rules are all wrong and it's either run or fight
but i'm still running
i'm still running.

04. Heal Over. {KT Tunstall.}
Comfort is more than a pat on the back.
come over here lady
let me wipe your tears away
come a little nearer baby
'cause you'll heal over
heal over
heal over someday.
don't hold on but don't let go
i know it's so hard
you've got to try to trust yourself
i know it's so hard
so hard.

05. No Big Bang. {The Heads.}
Although quite enjoying hirself, Xavin is having a bit of trouble reconciling body & brain. & bits.
you grow thirsty
& i'm all spread out
hung high and flirty
reflected on the shore
& you dive dive dive in
painting ripples on my skin
so blue & warm
when the supernovas have their duller moments
though i'm fashionably late i'm lightyears beyond them.
no big bang of a man bang of a man
no big bang of a man bang of a man
is enough to. . . .

06. Eve Of Destruction. {Bishop Allen.}
Okay, so their plan screwed up royally. Ultimately, that doesn't change a thing.
& if this moment is gone in a flash
& my hand in yours becomes ash in ash
& everyone becomes just dust in the blast
at least this day will be our last.
& i tell you over & over & over again my friend
that i'm down with you
even on the eve of destruction.

07. Night Light. {Sleater-Kinney.}
The world's blown up, & somehow Karolina's first thoughts are of Earth.
i would almost have to ask you
i hate to be led
so give me a spark i can look for instead.
how do you do it
this bitter and bloody world
keep it together
and shine for your family
how do you do it
with visions of worst to come
live in the present
and spin off the rays of the sun.

08. Headstrong. {Trapt.}
Xavin meets Nico. Xavin's heard about Nico.
i see your motives inside
& your decision to hide.
back off i'll take you on
headstrong i'll take on anyone
i know that you are wrong
headstrong we're headstrong
back off i'll take you on
headstrong i'll take on anyone
i know that you are wrong
& this is not where you belong
i can't give everything away
i won't give everything away.

09. Pretty Pretty. {The Early November.}
Xavin's trying to make K happy. Even if it means dressing up as a whorebag.
no reason why you should
try to make excuses to make me feel all right
excuses call for stupid reasons
& i know that it's not much that i can offer right now
just give me one little second & i will try my hardest
to make you feel like i'm someone else.

10. I Need Some Fine Wine, And You, You Need To Be Nicer. {The Cardigans.}
Xavin doesn't like Earth, or the way it's making hir act.
well here's a good man & a pretty young girl
trying to play together somehow
i'm wasting my life you're changing the world
i get drunk & watch your hair grow.
it's the good times that we shared
& the bad times that we'll have
it's the good times & the bad times that we'll have.

11. Living In Exile. {Sleater-Kinney.}
Xavin is completely lost.
i'll walk three thousand lonely miles
i'll start a new life of my own
don't know what i'm waiting for
but when it comes
i know that i'll be ready
a new woman.
she is living in exile
she is living in exile
nothing left but denial
she is living in exile.

12. Around The Sun. {R.E.M.}
But sie's pretty okay, all told.
i want the sun to shine on me
i want the truth to set me free
i wish the followers would lead
with a voice so strong it could knock me to my knees.
hold on world 'cause you don't know what's coming
hold on world 'cause i'm not jumping off
hold on to this boy a little longer
take another trip around the sun.

13. Princes Of The Universe. {Queen.}
Fuck that. Xavin RULES.
here we are born to be kings
we're the princes of the universe
here we belong fighting to survive
in a world with the darkest powers. . . .
born to be kings princes of the universe
fighting & free got your world in my hand
i'm here for your love & i'll make my stand
we were born to be princes of the universe.
NO MAN COULD UNDERSTAND
MY POWER IS IN MY OWN HAND!

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FEELS LIKE HOME. Naruto : Shikamaru/Chouji.

2008-04-30T14:26:53Z

Fandom: Naruto.
Subject: Shikamaru/Chouji.
Warnings: Excessive cuteness and randomized capitalization.
Note: For the cutest, most overlooked pairing in the enormous and horrifying Naruto fandom. Artists include Alanis Morissette, Sleater-Kinney, Bishop Allen, KT Tunstall, Neko Case, and Maria Mena. ALL FILES IN .MP3 FORMAT.

Feels Like Home
(A Shikamaru/Chouji Fanmix)

1. A Man - Alanis Morissette

I am a man who has grown from a son
Been crucified by enraged women
I am a man who was raised by such men
I'm often reminded of the fools I'm among

And I have been shamed
And I have relented
I'm working my way toward our union mended

In which we learn of our hero's Childhood and his psychotic Bitch Mother. Also his Gay.

2. That Teenage Feeling - Neko Case

Now my heart is green as wheat
Grown to outlive their seasons
And nothing comforts me the same
As my brave friend who says
"I don't care if forever never comes
'Cause I'm holding out for that teenage feeling"

In which Chouji is Unprepossessing & Huggable, and Shikamaru holds hands with Denial.

3. Under The Weather - KT Tunstall

You say you feel like a natural person
You haven't got nothing to hide
So why do you feel imperfection
Cut like a sword in your side?

'Cause you're under the weather
Just like the world
So sorry for bein' so bold
When I turn out the light
You're out of sight
Although I know that I'm not alone
It feels like home

In which our Hero subconsciously reflects upon the Merits of Love Handles and is Jacked Off rather frequently by Denial.

4. Harmony - Mary Timony

When you heard those chicks talkin' 'bout your best friend
Did you tell them that it hurts to offend?
So much is wasting my time
We travel in the animal line

In which Our Hero would very much love to Smack a Bitch.

5. Night Light - Sleater-Kinney

Oh little light
That shines for me in the dark of the night
Oh little sigh
Sometimes I follow you all the way home
I would almost have to ask you
I hate to be led
So give me a spark I can look for instead

How do you do it
This bitter and bloody world
Keep it together
And shine for your family
How do you do it
With visions of worst to come
Live in the present
And spin off the rays of the sun . . .

I would almost have to ask you
It's clumsy when said
So give me a spark I can look for instead

More Wankery. Wankity wankity Wank. Also Vague but Cute stalkerish Vibes. Eurrrrrrgh.

6. Dance Song '97 - Sleater-Kinney

Well you know there ain't no doubt
When the feeling finds you out
You know you can try to run
I tell you it still will come
When you feel your body shake
Trip and fall you can't walk straight
Baby then you know it's done
You can feel your heart is stung

You're the one that I saw
You're the one that I want
You're the one that I saw
You're the one that I want

In which Denial gives the fuck Up and Buggres Offe, leaving Our Hero alone with his Groinal Longings.

7. Black Heart Today - Amy Ray

I got a black heart today
No amount of kindness can turn it the other way
Even the dogs are tired of me
Howling at the trees

Take this meanness outta me
Take this meanness outta me
Take this meanness outta me

In which the Teapot is Pissed and Clementines are Introduced.

8. Oh, The Congestion - Piebald

I wanna see the sun
I'm waiting for someone
To get me out of bed
Sweet oblivion . . .

I'll follow laws of man
If they make perfect sense
Or else I'm on my own
My own present tense . . .

Never done nothing like this before
And you can't try to understand . . .
Too smart to do the dance
Too jumpy to stand still

In which the Teapot's Mood has Not Improve one Iota.

9. Love Song - The Soviettes

Oh when a girl like her likes him I think she's thinkin'
That a boy like him liked her but she's just wishin'
Because the boy like him likes him and now they're leavin'
So the girl like her's like wrecked and now she's thinkin'
My life is over
My life is over

Some sort of Mental Breakthrough. Search me.

10. Black Roses Red - The Alley Cats

Can I ask you a question please?
Promise you won't laugh at me
Honestly I'm standing here
Afraid I'll be replaced
And as twisted as it seems
I only fear love when it's in my dreams
So let in the morning light
And let the darkness fade away

Can you turn my black roses red?
Can you turn my black roses red?

In which Courage (among Other Things) is screwed Up.

11. Clementines - Bishop Allen

Let us raise this glass of wine
For your blood burns just like mine
And we neither felt too much
Going home
You know I never really had the mind
For an ordinary life
But I guess I'm gonna give it a try
So here goes . . .

And we laugh and we sing and we dance the dance of the wise man
And alone in the dark we don't know what their secrets mean

Wine Dine 69, but Cuter. Also: more Clementines!

12. You're The Only One - Maria Mena

You are the only one who
Drags me kicking and screaming through fast dreams
And you are the only one who
Knows exactly what I mean . . .

I guess there's just a part of me that likes to bring you down just to keep you around
'Cause the day that you realise how amazing you are you're gonna leave me

Soppiness gently sprinkled with Unease & Discomfiture. Also: note penis joke re Chouji. Nyoro~n.

13. Everything - Alanis Morissette

I can be an asshole of the grandest kind
I can withhold like it's going out of style
I can be the moodiest baby and you've never met anyone
Who is as negative as I am sometimes

I am the wisest woman you've ever met
I am the kindest soul with whom you've connected
I have the bravest heart that you've ever seen and you've never met anyone
Who is as positive as I am sometimes

You see everything you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can't relate
And you're still here

In which Our Hero seems to be a Fountain made of Syrup . . . Syrup of Youth. Hem, hem. Hem.
[Try to ignore the female perspective in this one. Although Shikamaru is a woman.]

14. Butterfly Nets - Bishop Allen

Up and up you go
For to steal the secrets of the heavens
Will you share them with me
My bright and brilliant spy?
And should you be blown back
Know that I will always run to greet you
Still surprised to catch you every time

My Heart bleeds. It bleeds Syrup.

15. At My Most Beautiful - R.E.M.

I read bad poetry
Into your machine
I save your messages
Just to hear your voice
You always listen carefully
To awkward rhymes
You always say your name
Like I wouldn't know it's you
At your most beautiful

I've found a way to make you
I've found a way
A way to make you smile

At my most beautiful
I count your eyelashes
Secretly
With every one whisper I love you
I let you sleep
I know you're closed-eye watching me
Listening
I thought I saw a smile

Syrup no Jutsu! Hurrah!

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SOLID GROUND. Death Note : Ide/Matsuda.

2008-04-28T15:35:23Z

Fandom: Death Note.
Subject: Ide/Matsuda.
Warnings: Homos.
Note: You could look for deep hidden meaning in this mix, but you would be wasting your time. It is just very gay. And cracky. Oh, Matsu-tan. Music includes Sleater-Kinney, Travis, Metric, The Epoxies, The Butchies, Death Cab, Franz Ferdinand, and Regina Spektor (not to mention the ubiquitous Weather Girls), among others. ALL SONGS ARE IN .MP3 FORMAT.

SOLID GROUND
an Ide/Matsuda fanmix

1. How Would It Be [Lene Marlin] ~ Matsuda mourns the passing of Teh Kiraz.

What have I done?
What if it's too late now?
Did I do all I could, did I?
Did I make it good, did I?
Somehow it doesn't feel right
Is it really all over?
Did I think it through, did I?
What if all I want is you?

2. All I Need [Matchbox Twenty] ~ I think this song is meant to be sarcastic, but either way, Matsuda is still mourning his arse off.

Everywhere someone's getting over
Everybody's lies and sometimes
People still use other people with a crooked smile
And all around the world there's a sinking feeling
Out there right now someone's feeling
Down on themselves and don't know why
Every night

And that's all that I need, yeah
Someone else to cling to, yeah
Someone I can lean on
Until I don't need to
Just stay all through the night, yeah
In the morning let me down
Cause that's all that I need right now

3. The Sound Of Settling [Death Cab For Cutie] ~ This is Ide's song. He is a socially inept troglodyte (as opposed to all those troglodytes who are NOT socially inept).

I've got a hunger twisting my stomach into knots
That my tongue has tied off
My brain's repeating, "If you've got an impulse, let it out"
But they never make it past my mouth. . . .
Our youth is fleeting old age is just around the bend
And I can't wait to go grey
And I'll sit and wonder at every love that could've been
If I'd only thought of something charming to say

4. Listen Up! [The Gossip] ~ Ide thinks Matsuda should suck it up. What exactly he should suck up is unspecified.

there's some people that you just can't trust
some people talk way too much
take my advice and listen up
don't be a fool like the rest of us
now listen up. . . .
1 2 3 listen to me
3 4 so much trouble in store
4 5 get it right the first time oh
count it with me now

5. Love Will Come Through [Travis] ~ Squashy Song No. One.

If I told you a secret
You won't tell a soul
Will you hold it and
Keep it alive
'Cause it's burning a hole
And I can't get to sleep
And I can't live alone
In this life. . . .
And you stand at the crossroads
Of highroads and lowroads
And I've got a feeling
It's right
If it's real what I'm feeling
There's no make believing
The sound of the wings
Of the flight of a dove

6. Black And Blue [Tilly & The Wall] ~ Squashy Song No. Two.

When we hear that song, we will dance
When we're with all our friends, we will drink and laugh
When we're driving in our cars, we will sing
If you're lost and you look, you will find me
But what I couldn't do is figure out how you
You jumped into my heart, now I couldn't start
To think of life without you, my world would stop
And fall down again, all black and blue again
I want to know everything about you
What makes you feel alive?
And I want to know everything that you do
Let's drive through the night

7. Take Me Out [Franz Ferdinand] ~ Interlude: A song that is not squashy. Actually it is sorta sad. Sniffles.

I say don't you know
You say you don't know
I say take me out
If I wane this could die
If I wait this could die
I want you to take me out
If I move this could die
If eyes move this could die
Come on
Take me out
I know I won't be leaving here with you

8. Out Of Nowhere [Delays] ~ Squashy Song No. Three.

You came into frame out of nowhere
Pulled me through the trees to the river
Now I’m living each day like I’m living the last
And we could make it upstream if it wasn’t so fast
'Cause you’re out of sight, out of nowhere
The evidence points to a matter of choice
C’mon pick me, pick me, for the flight
Out of nowhere tonight, tonight

9. Save Me [Remy Zero] ~ Squashy Song No. Four.

i see the world has folded in your heart
i feel the waves crash down inside
and they pull me under
and i would give you anything you want
you're, you're all i wanted
all my dreams have fallen down
crawlin round (and round and round)

10. Start Together [Sleater-Kinney] ~ Life-changing events, &c.

If you want me it's changing
If you want everything's changing
If you want the sky would open up
If you want your eyes could open up

I'm a mess
I'm the worst
But the best
That you've heard. . . .
Right or wrong
Here we are
I wanna know
What you are

11. Samson [Regina Spektor] ~ Matsuda needs a haircut. (This song is creepily reminiscent of Aizawa somehow, but please ignore that bit. Don't worry, though; the Mogi/Aizawa mix is coming up. NO.)

The history books forgot about us and the Bible didn't mention us
And the Bible didn't mention us, not even once

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first, I loved you first
Beneath the stars came fallin' on our heads
But they're just old light, they're just old light
Your hair was long when we first met

12. It's You [Michelle Branch] ~ Matsuda wants Ide's bits, plzkthx.

If tomorrow never comes
I would just want one thing
I would sell it to the stars and the sun
I would write it for the world to see

And it's you
The light changes when you're in the room
Oh it's you
Oh it's you

If tomorrow never comes
I would want just one wish
To kiss your quiet mouth
and trace the steps with my finger tips

13. Too Little Too Late [Metric] ~ A little harsh for this pairing, honestly, but it fits nevertheless. (Trans.: I really like Metric. Relevance can suck it.) Also: Ide has no fashion sense, according to Matsuda (and me).

You can burn your paper fingers in the ashtray
Place your swollen lips on mine
You can shave your heavy head in my carpeted hallway
Sure for the first time you're wearing the right clothes

Now take them off
Meet me on the band room rug
Tie my right hand to the ride

14. Sway [The Perishers] ~ Squashy Song No. I Have Lost Track. Matsu's POV.

I talk to you as to a friend
I hope that's what you've come to be
It feels as though we've made amends
Like we found a way eventually
It was you who picked the pieces up
When I was a broken soul
And then glued me back together
Returned to me what others stole

I don't wanna hurt you
I don't wanna make you sway
Like I know I've done before
I will not do it anymore
I've always been a dreamer
I've had my head among the clouds
Now that I'm coming down
Won't you be my solid ground?

15. Oh! [Sleater-Kinney] ~ Song That Would Be Squashy But Is Too Hot To Be Squashy No. One. Ide's POV. (His name just is not cute.)

If you're tired of the big so so
Get yourself into some self-control
Play the game by putting on the brakes
Slow down and make less mistakes

Nobody lingers like your hands on my heart
Nobody figures like you figured me out
I would be lying if I didn't say to you
No one comes closer; don't worry, you got it!
(There's fire inside, if you want it, let me know
I'm sick and I'm tired of letting go)

16. Send Me You [The Butchies] ~ Really Really Hot Song No. One.

she says I'm crazy I said oh really
I'm gonna jump on you on the bed
make me a monkey make me fall over
make me a cradle and hold me instead
I'm not gonna say it okay I'll say it
flying over stars and over to your room
caught in an ice storm caught in your eyes
and I'm losing my mind but I'm winning you

17. Birdhouse In Your Soul [They Might Be Giants] ~ Matsuda = TMBG, and this is the most relevant song I could find, so bite me. Also I find the image of Matsuda killing Argonauts extremely hilarious, because I have mental problems. Anyway, he IS the bluebird of friendliness.

I'm your only friend
I'm not your only friend
But I'm a little glowing friend
But really I'm not actually your friend
But I am

Blue canary in the outlet by the light switch
Who watches over you
Make a little birdhouse in your soul
Not to put too fine a point on it
Say I'm the only bee in your bonnet
Make a little birdhouse in your soul. . . .

There's a picture opposite me
Of my primitive ancestry
Which stood on rocky shores and kept the beaches shipwreck free
Though I respect that a lot
I'd be fired if that were my job
After killing Jason off and countless screaming Argonauts
Bluebird of friendliness
Like guardian angels always near

18. Bathroom Stall [The Epoxies] ~ Everyone loves sex in restrooms! :D

Hey there, baby doll
come meet me in the bathroom stall
or anywhere, anywhere you please
hey there, lover please
I'm begging you, I'm on my knees
it's cruel to make me wait a second more

'cause you know you've got me
(yeah you've got me)
I can't wait
(I can't wait)
wait to have you on the floor
wait to get inside your door
I can't stand it anymore
oh no

19. It's Raining Men [Weather Girls] ~ IT'S RAINING MATSUDA. |~:O MY PENIS, SEZ IDE.

It's rainin' men. Hallelujah
it's rainin' men - amen.
I'm gonna go out. I'm gonna let myself get
Absolutely soaking wet. It's rainin' men.
Hallelujah
it's rainin' men
ev'ry spe-ci-men:
Tall
blond
dark and lean
rough and tough and strong and mean.

AND JAPANESE FALLING FROM SKYSCRAPERS ONTO MATRESSES. HE'S SO SUAVE, THAT MATSU-TAN.

ENJOY.

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I'M JUST PROFOUNDLY FRUSTRATED BY ALL THIS (SO FUCK YOU, MAN). Transmetropolitan : General.

2008-04-25T14:54:30Z

Fandom: Transmetropolitan.
Subject: General.
Warnings: Spoilers for the entire series.
Note: A truly disturbing mixture musically, though the entirety is suitably vitriolic and profane. Bands include (but are not limited to) R.E.M., Sleater-Kinney, The Epoxies, The Beatles, Patti Smith, Piebald, The Soviettes, & Brand New. ALL FILES ARE .MP3.

I'm Just PROFOUNDLY Frustrated By All This (SO FUCK YOU, MAN!)

1. Underneath The Bunker !! R.E.M.
Required drug-ridden, paranoid, end-of-the-universe song to start with.
I will hide and you will hide
And we shall hide together here
Underneath the bunkers in the row
I have water I have rum
Wait for dawn and dawn shall come
Underneath the bunkers in the row

2. Everything !! Sleater-Kinney
Spider Jerusalem in a drugged haze: a typical mix of vitriolic fury and self-centered demands.
If you're tired of lying,
there's something you should try
You said Hallelujah baby,
Hallelujah child
Who is more deserving than me?
Why live with less when I can get all the things that I want to?
And I want to
Everything in the world
If you're tired of watching
the good life pass you by
You say you owe it, you stole it
And everybody knows it
They'll make you pay until they're dry
Who are better suited than we?
Dressed for success but get all the things that we want to
At any price that we want to
Everything in the world
Deny me
Defy me
I am so desperate
Reach for it
Go to it
The thrill of ownership
So tired of the whining
Your sad little lullaby
You've got the money, no honey,
A feeling in your tummy
Why don't you just lay down and die?
Who is better suited than me?
I feel like a wreck, but I've done all the things that I want to
At any price that I want to
At any price
Everything in the world

3. What Makes The Monkey Dance !! Chuck Prophet
In the future, not many questions have been answered.
What makes the monkey dance?
Birds & bees chimpanzees
Buzzing round my head swinging through trees
She's a deep dish pie precious flower
Wrapped like candy primped & polished
While the people creep & the willows weep
In the dead of night I'm a-countin' sheep
All night long I toss and turn
I wonder what it's gonna take to learn
What makes the monkey dance
We got brand new drugs for the same old blues
Satellites peeking into your room
Machine to tell me if you're lying
Got sheep for corn & eggs for frying
I've been up for lunch with the man on the moon
Do almost anything that I wanna do
Makes no difference where you go
Everybody's got a theory but nobody knows
What makes the monkey dance
Peek through keyholes on my knees
For clues to life's mysteries
From daytime soaps to late-night cable
'Round the corner, under the table
I've been looking for love, can't be named
Looking for love, ain't no shame
They go 'round, short or tall
I got to get it or nothing at all
What makes the monkey dance?

4. Eleanor Rigby !! The Beatles
The City.
Ah, look at all the lonely people
Ah, look at all the lonely people
Eleanor Rigby died in the church and was buried along with her name
Nobody came
Father McKenzie wiping the dirt from his hands as he walks from the grave
No one was saved
All the lonely people
Where do they all come from?
All the lonely people
Where do they all belong?

5. No News Is Good News !! A New Found Glory
Already sick of it here.
All along, we follow blindly
Force fed prime-time, previewed nightly
Why would anybody leave the safety of their homes?
I wonder why
I wonder why
Only disasters flood the headlines
Other people’s misery
Are on for the next three hours,
Commercial free.
And I can’t take much more of this,
We’re all so wrapped up, in it,
Nothing will change, but the channel,
So I turn it off.
I see billboards on the horizon,
I can’t imagine what they’ll tell me,
What to wear,
What to drink,
Where to eat,
It’s so easy not to think for yourself anymore,
So naive,
You don’t do anything anymore.
We all give in,
We all complain,
We sit and wait,
For things to change,
We're waiting,
We're waiting.

6. American Hearts !! Piebald
The New Scum.
I walk the streets of a Carolina
Watching people pushing shopping carts
& there's a guy above me & he's washing windows
Making ten bucks a pop, and he says to me:
"Hey, you're part of it.
Yeah, you're part of it."
& I say, "Sir, well have you heard
That this country is unequal still?
History continues itself, continues itself.
History continues itself,
& I did not create the rules."
From all I've heard & all I've seen,
This place has broken my American heart.

7. I Hear Noises !! Tegan + Sara
Yelena, the morning after.
I am disappointed
Every morning that I wake up
And I am disappointed by the feeling
Of waking up next to you
You call me up, let me know that
That my sick guilt's
So unwelcome
It's so unwelcome yeah. . . .
And the pills they will not
Will not will not will not let me go
And I will not will not
Will not let you drink yourself alone
Call me up and let me know that
That my sick guilt is so unwelcome
You're so unwelcome you're so unwelcome
I hear noises in the darkness
I hear sadness in your voice
I hear noises in the darkness
I hear sadness inside you
I hear noises in the darkness
I hear sadness inside you
I hear sadness inside you

8. Land Of Confusion !! Genesis
Spider drugs up and sleeps. The result:
I must've dreamed a thousand dreams
Been haunted by a million screams
I can hear the marching feet
They're moving into the street
Now did you read the news today
They say the danger's gone away
But I can see the fire's still alight
Burning into the night
Too many men
Too many people
Making too many problems
And there's not much love to go round
Can't you see
This is the land of confusion
This is the world we live in
And these are the hands we're given
Use them and let's start trying
To make is a place worth living in
Oh Superman where are you now
Everything's gone wrong somehow
The men of steel, men of power
Are losing control by the hour
This is the time
This is the place
So we look for the future
But there's not much love to go round
Tell me why, this is a land of confusion

9. Ignoreland !! R.E.M.
Political vitriol is a beautiful thing indeed.
These bastards stole their power from the victims of the Us v. Them years,
wrecking all things virtuous and true.
The undermining social democratic downhill slide into abysmal
lost lamb off the precipice into the trickle down runoff pool.
They hypnotised the summer, Nineteen seventy-nine.
Marched into the capital brooding duplicitous, wicked and able, media-ready,
heartless, and labeled. Super U.S. citizen, super achiever,
mega ultra power dosing. Relax.
Defense, defense, defense, defense. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Yeah, yeah, yeah. Ignoreland. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Ignoreland.
The information nation took their clues from all the sound-bite gluttons.
Nineteen eighty, eighty-four, eighty-eight, ninety-two too, too.
How to be what you can be, jump jam junking your energies.
How to walk in dignity with throw-up on your shoes
They amplified the autumn, Nineteen seventy-nine.
Calculate the capital, up the republic my skinny ass.
T.V. tells a million lies. The paper's terrified to report
anything that isn't handed on a presidential spoon,
I'm just profoundly frustrated by all this. So, fuck you, man. (Fuck 'em)
Yeah, yeah, yeah. Ignoreland. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Ignoreland.
If they weren't there we would have created them. Maybe, it's true,
but I'm resentful all the same. Someone's got to take the blame.
I know that this is vitriol. No solution, spleen-venting,
But I feel better having screamed. Don't you?

10. Glitter In Their Eyes !! Patti Smith (feat. Michael Stipe)
No-solution vitriol, pt. 2.
It's been a while since I've seen your face
It's been a while since I've walked this place
I see the monkeys riding on their bikes
Racing through the impossible night
You say you're feeling like a new tree
Man they'll cut you from limb to limb
Pick your pocket with such delight
Shake it to the right
Shake it in the light
Oh can't you see the glitter
The glitter in their eyes
Oh can't you see the glitter
The glitter in their eyes
Genius stalking in new shoes
Have you got wto blues
Dust of diamonds
Making you sneeze
Kids on rollers ready for
Running through the junkyards
Breezing through the halls
Racing through the malls
Walking through the walls
They'll strip your mind
Just for fun
Quoth the raven
Yum yum yum
Children children everywhere
Selling souls for souvenirs
They've been sold out like as not
Just for chunks of ankgor vat
They'll trade you up
Trade you down
Your body a commodity
Our sacred stage
Has been defaced
Replaced to grace
The marketplace
Dow is jonesing at the bit
42nd disney street
Ragged hearts unraveling
Look out kids
The gleam the gleam
All that glitters
Is not all that glitters
Is not all that glitters

11. Hey Bulldog !! The Beatles
Enter the Smiler.
Sheepdog standing in the rain
Bullfrog doing it again
Some kind of happiness is
measured out in miles
What make you think you're
something special when you smile
Childlike no one understands
Jackknife in your sweaty hands
Some kind of innocence is
measured out in years
You don't know what it's like
to listen to you fears
You can talk to me
You can talk to me
You can talk to me
If you're lonely, you can talk to me
Big man walking in the park
Wigwam frightened of the dark
Some kind of solitude is
measured out in you
You think you know but you haven't got a clue

12. Eminent Domain !! Stranger Spirits
The Smiler, pt. 2.
They say the meek will inherit the earth
But now I’m gonna re-define those words.
I bet you could be like me
Somehow you’re only you
And you're not that good.
This is my my my my my
My eminent domain
And you will fear the place I started from
Lemme tell you bout the place where I come from
Goin’ to a place called #1
The look on your face says you’re gonna lose
You can tell by the way I move my shoes
(And now it’s on)
This is my my my my my
My eminent domain
And you will fear the place I started from
Lemme tell you what I'm gonna do to you
I’m gonna knock ya down.
I’m gonna knock ya down.
Gonna knock ya down knock ya down knock ya down
gonna knock ya down gonna knock ya down.
You’ll be under my feet
like chewing gum
Got a devil with a blue dress
bringin’ me some
With my feet and my hands
I’m gonna sing this song
Gonna hang in the air
and drop down like an atomic bomb
And you will fear the place I started from
This is my my my my my
My eminent domain
This is for your own good
This is for your own good
And you will hate the place where I come from

13. Synthesized !! The Epoxies
The audience.
See them on the TV screen
Looking back with electric eyes
Razor blades & Vaseline
What I see is synthesized
Photographs in magazines
Will accept no compromise
Refuel with nicotine
All of them are synthesized.
Every day now more & more
Names & faces obsolete
See them moving on the floor
Always listen to the beat
One by one enter the stream
Every move is synchronized
Dancing like they're in a dream
Everything is synthesized.
Fighting hearts in catalogs
Sacrificed to the disguise
Disconnecting analogs
Anything to synthesize
Nothing here is what it seems
Nothing can be recognized
Perfect fit for the machine
Everyone is synthesized.

14. Channel X !! The Soviettes
The election.
They know they're doing this on the west coast to the east coast
And so do all the stations from Fargo to Chicago
There's local heroes and kids who can't do the math
But the one who did only points at the weather map
Bury me with stories of 200 ghosts
The lakes and the fakes always get the most coverage
So put the feel good to start--the rest put later on
To end a segment on stars
The war? Let's lead them on
Channel X Channel 0 Channel Channel X
Just look at what they do when the pressure's on to dumb us down
"Let's go with a piece on a diet trend"--what a mastermind!
And if our arms don't reach--are they too short?
These ideas and mindsets should make it through
But as long as we know who won the game last night--we know we never might
Please put the world first, so when we're all in one spot, is it a riot now?
And with a flight jacket on, am I a pilot now?
10 o'clock
10 o'clock
That's when the world stops!
Oh my gosh, the world just stopped.

15. Little Mouth !! Sleater-Kinney
Commercialisation.
damn you
damn you
smile pretty take take the money
you know me well don't you?
smile pretty take take the money
you know how to sell?
i do.
i'm your little mouth
damaged goods
you wanna try her
i think i wanna
damn you

16. Subcity !! Tracy Chapman
The City: unchanged.
People say it doesn't exist
'Cause no one would like to admit
That there is a city underground
Where people live everyday
Off the waste and decay
Off the discards of their fellow man
Here in subcity life is hard
We can't recieve any government relief
I'd like to give Mr. President my honest regards
For disregarding me

17. Haven't Tried It !! Piebald
The filthy assistants' song.
I haven't tried it, but I think I've quite decided I won't wake you when you're dead
And if you mind them you can just go out and find them
Take all their stuff and pave over the land
Great communicator no time to wait you are no waiter
Or should I say you won't save anything
If you find a way out that will never do somehow
Handshakes ill-fated ownership that you created
You better watch that face that you've got on
Charming wasichu it is not so nice to meet you
Evolution doesn't stop right here or now

18. Guernica !! Brand New
Yelena watches Spider fall ill.
I submit no excuse
If this is what I have to do
I owe you everyday I wake
If I could, I would shrink myself
Sink through your skin to your bloodcells
Remove what ever makes you hurt
But I'm to weak to be your cure
Is this, the way a toy feels
When its batteries run dry?
I am the watch you always where
But you forget to wind
Nobody plans to be half a world away
at times like these
So I sat alone and waited out the night
The best part of what has happened
Was the part I must have missed
So I'm asking you to shine it on and
stick around
I'm not writing my goodbyes
I'm not letting you check out
You will beat this starting now
And you will always be around
I'm there to monitor your breathing
I will watch you while your sleeping
I will keep you safe and sound
Does anybody remember back when you were very young?
Did you ever think that you would be this blessed?

19. The Size Of Our Love !! Sleater-Kinney
Sickbed. Yelena.
Our love is the size of these tumors inside us
Our love is the size of this hospital room, you're my hospital groom
Put the ring on my finger, so tight it turns blue
A constant reminder, I'll die in this room if you die in this room
Sit like a watchdog and patiently wait
Listen for footsteps down the hallways, visit beds like they're graves
Days go by so slowly
Nights go by so slowly
In a hospital room
In a box built for two
I fight for air, fight for my own air
Forget all the things I can do alone
I fight for a heart, I fight for a strong heart
I fight to never know this sickness you know
But I know it's my own, I gave it a home
Our love is the size of these tumors inside us
Our love is the size of this hole in the ground, where my heart's buried now.

20. Don't Forget Me !! Red Hot Chili Peppers
Memory fades ('cept not, LOL ELLIS). Yelena again.
I'm an ocean in your bedroom
Make you feel warm
Make you want to re-assume
Now we know it all for sure
I'm a dance hall dirty breakbeat
Make the snow fall
Up from underneath your feet
Not alone, I'll be there
Tell me when you want to go
I'm a meth lab first rehab
Take it all off
And step inside the running cab
There's a love that knows the way
I'm the rainbow in your jail cell
All the memories of
Everything you've ever smelled
Not alone, I'll be there
Tell me when you want to go
Sideways falling
More will be revealed my friend
Don't forget me
I can't hide it
Come again make me excited
I'm an inbred and a pothead
Two legs that you spread
Inside the tool shed
Now we know it all for sure
I could show you
To the free field
Overcome and more
Will always be revealed
Not alone, I'll be there
Tell me when you want to go
I'm the bloodstain
On your shirt sleeve
Coming down and more are coming to believe
Now we know it all for sure
Make the hair stand
Up on your arm
Teach you how to dance
Inside the funny farm
Not alone, I'll be there
Tell me when you want to go

21. (Don't Go Back To) Rockville !! R.E.M.
He won't come back . . . or will he? A (theoretically) sad song for a (theoretically) happy ending.
Looking at your watch a third time waiting in the station for a bus
Going to a place that's far, so far away and if that's not enough
Going where nobody says hello, they don't talk to anybody they don't know
You'll wind up in some factory that's full time filth and nowhere left to go
Walk home to an empty house, sit around all by yourself
I know it might sound strange, but I believe
You'll be coming back before too long
Don't go back to Rockville
And waste another year

22. Spider !! They Might Be Giants
So self-explanatory, it's frightening.
Ladies and gentlemen
Ladies and gentlemen
Spider
He is our hero
Spider
Get rid of
Spider
Step on spider
Spider
We love you spider
I promise not to kill you
Spider
Spider
We love you spider
Spider
Get rid of
Spider
Must stop
Spider
He is our hero

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LIKE A CRIMINAL. From Eroica With Love : Dorian/Klaus.

2008-04-23T14:34:02Z

Fandom: From Eroica With Love.
Pairing: Dorian/Klaus.
Warnings: Camp.
Notes: The UST is relieved at last! I'm sure Dorian finds it a great relief. 20 songs; artists include Fiona Apple, I Am Kloot, Maroon 5, Gorillaz, Matchbox Twenty, Garbage, Hot Hot Heat, and Poe. ALL SONGS IN .MP3 FORMAT. Thanks to ainaweth, danakszoul, and everyone else who helped out at schlosseberbach!

Like A Criminal
(A Dorian/Klaus Fanmix)



1. Coincidence  { I Am Kloot }
Meeting. Dorian's POV.

we are all gathered us here by coincidence
thats why what we say doesn't make any sense

you may have just come to carry me
beyond the things i've ever seen
love may have just come to bury me
but i'm not afraid of what i see


2. Criminal  { Fiona Apple }
Tease. Dorian's POV.

What I need is a good defense 
'Cause I'm feelin' like a criminal 
And I need to redeemed 
To the one I've sinned against 
Because he's all I ever knew of love 

Let me know the way 
Before there's hell to pay 
Give me room to lay the law and let me go 
I've got to make a play 
To make my lover stay 
So what would an angel say 
The devil wants to know


3. Harder To Breathe  { Maroon 5 }
Violence. Variable POV.

Klaus:
How dare you say that my behavior's unacceptable
So condescending, unnecessarily critical
I have the tendency of getting very physical
So watch your step, 'cause if I do you'll need a miracle
You drain me dry and make me wonder why I'm even here
This double vision I was seeing is finally clear
You want to stay but you know very well I want you gone
Not fit to fuckin' tread the ground that I am walking on

Dorian:
When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say there's no way we’re gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there 'cause it’s getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there 'cause it’s getting harder and harder to breathe


4. Disease  { Matchbox Twenty }
Falling. Klaus's POV.

I got a disease deep inside me
Makes me feel uneasy baby
I can't live without you
Tell me, what am I supposed to do about it
Keep your distance from me
Don't pay no attention to me
I got a disease

Feels like you're making a mess
You're hell on wheels in a black dress
You drove me to the fire and left me there to burn
Every little thing you do is tragic
All my life before was magic
Beautiful girl
I can't breathe


5. Terrible Though  { Poe }
Denial. Klaus's POV.

A terrible thought has moved into my mind
A giant rat that's nibbling on my pride
It's tearing away my patience and my wit
I must take proper measures, set a trap for it
What a terrible thought . . .

What minds have you shredded
I bet they regretted
Having ever thought you up
Just look at you shine
Commiting your crimes
You know I don't want you in my mind
'Cause you're breaking my stride
You poisonous vine
You're strangling me inside


6. I Think I'm Paranoid  { Garbage }
Fear. Klaus's POV.

you can look but you can't touch
i don't think i like you much
heaven knows what a girl can do
heaven knows what you've got to prove

i think i'm paranoid
and complicated
i think i'm paranoid
manipulated
bend me, break me
anyway you need me
all i want is you
bend me break me
breaking down is easy
all i want is you


7. Jealous Of Your Cigarette  { Hawksley Workman }
Turn-on. Dorian's POV.

No king, no prince with gold ring pinky
I suggest that we do something kinky
No pilot flying private plane
To smooch you on the hills of Spain
No catapult to all-night kisses
That old thing just always misses
All of this don't mess my stuffing
Only one thing got me huffing

I'm jealous of your cigarette
And all the things you do with it
I'm jealous of your cigarette
And how you wanna suck on it
And not me


8. I Want You  { Across The Universe }
Desire. Dorian's POV.

I want you
I want you so bad
I want you
I want you so bad 
It's driving me mad
It's driving me mad


9. Ironspy  { Splashdown }
Fraternising. Variable POV.

Dorian:
Please leave -- stay
I promise I'll try harder now.
You've made the cut, and stayed to watch it bleed,
Just making sure your secret stays with me.

Klaus:
Someone
Stop my hands from shaking
Iron in my spine's conducting lightning
Raging anger,
Yeah, you've never been truly mine,
But if you were, yes, if you were, I wouldn't want you anyway.


10. Dare  { Gorillaz }
Stimulation. Dorian's POV.

you've got to press it on you
you just think it
that's what you do baby
hold it down there
jump with them all and move it
jump back and forth
and feel like you were there yourself
work it out

never did no harm
never did no harm


11. Elevator  { Hot Hot Heat }
Not serious. Variable POV.

Dorian:
Blame me for the elevator
I know you will oh yeah you will
It's not me who's the operator
But you're going down down down
You'll be sorry when you're singing all alone . . .

Klaus:
It's true I've dabbled at times with confident lines
I was half of a man nearly half of the time
In an innocent way, I thought it could stay
With us both on the ground
With us fooling around
Let's just stay on the ground
Let's stay fooling around on the ground


12. Temptation Waits  { Garbage }
Addiction. Dorian's POV.

you come on like a drug
i just can't get enough
i'm like an addict coming at you for a little more
and there's so much at stake
i can't afford to waste
i never needed anybody like this before

when i'm not sure what i'm living for
(when i'm not sure who i am)
when i'm not sure what i'm looking for
(when i'm not sure who i am)


13. Prince  { Vanessa Carlton }
Used. Dorian's POV.

Willing and able to run 
I am
Willing and able 
I'm able to come . . .

If it all went away
Nothing left to say
Would you fight it or would you lay down
At the hand of your God could you see the light
Oh my prince can't you see what's been found


14. The Pageant Of The Bizarre  { Zero 7 }
Proposal. Dorian's POV.

It's never gonna be normal, you and me
What you're signing on for is a storm at sea
So if you think you're tough, give me all your love
And I'll give you every little piece of me

Catch a falling star you'll go far
In the pageant of the bizarre
And tonight I'll give you my heart


15. Too Little Too Late  { Metric }
Tryst. Dorian's POV.

You can take a live wire into the bath with you
For a feeling you can't find
You can entertain your childhood friends with a tour of the bedroom
Laugh to erase the dirt on your mind
Oh let's move out
Meet me at the motel
Tie my right hand to the bible
Too little too late but we can't say no
It's too much to feel
Tie my right hand to the bible


16. Over My Shoulder  { I Am Kloot }
Reminiscence. Klaus's POV.

i used to work night and day
nobody listened to a word i'd say
i didn't care you knew me then
someone stupid asked if we were friends, well

over my shoulder it goes,
back to a bar, we both used to know


17. Darts Of Pleasure  { Franz Ferdinand }
Passion (and bad German). Dorian's POV.

You are the latest adventure
You're an emotion avenger
You are the devil that sells her
Light or dark, fantastic passion
I know that you will surrender
I know that you will surrender
I want this fantastic passion
We'll have fantastic passion

You can feel my lips undress your eyes
Undress your eyes, undress your eyes
Skin can feel my lips they tingle, tense anticipation
This one is an easy one, feel the word and melt upon it
Words of love and words so leisured
Words are poisoned darts of pleasure
Died, and so you died


18. I Bet That You Look Good On The Dance Floor  { Arctic Monkeys }
Giving in. Variable POV.

Klaus:
Stop making the eyes at me
I'll stop making the eyes at you
And what it is that suprises me
Is that I don't really want you to . . .

Dorian:
I wish you'd stop ignoring me
Because you're sending me to despair
Without a sound, yeah, you're calling me
And I don't think it's very fair
That your shoulders are frozen (colder than night)
Oh, but you're an explosion (you're dynamite)
Your name isn't Rio, but I don't care for sand
Lighting the fuse might result in a bang, with a bang, go!


19. Come As You Are  { Nirvana }
Memory. Klaus's POV.

Come as you are, as you were 
As I want you to be 
As a friend, as a friend 
As an old enemy 
Take your time, hurry up 
Choice is yours, don't be late 
Take a rest as a friend 
As an old 
Memoria . . .

And I swear that I don't have a gun 
No, I don't have a gun, no, I don't have a gun


20. Black Is The Color Of My True Love's Hair (Jaffa Remix)  { Nina Simone }
Love. Dorian's POV.

Oh, I love my lover, and well he knows
Yes, I love the ground on where he goes
I love the ground on where he stands
I love the ground on where he stands
Black is the colour of my true love's hair
Of my true love's hair

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EMPTY CITY. Fell : General.

2008-02-19T15:39:17Z

Fandom: Fell.
Subject: General.
Warnings: None.
Notes: A mix for Warren Ellis's new series Fell: Snowtown and the characters within it. Band selection includes Stranger Spirits, R.E.M., Tegan & Sara, KT Tunstall, The Epoxies, Sleater-Kinney, and Denali, among others. ALL SONGS ARE IN .MP3 FORMAT.






i. drive | R.E.M.
Mood.
Hey, kids, where are you?
Nobody tells you what to do, baby.
Hey kids, shake a leg.
Maybe you're crazy in the head, baby.
Maybe you did. Maybe you walked.
Maybe you rocked around the clock.
Tick-tock. Tick-tock.
Maybe I ride. Maybe you walk.
Maybe I drive to get off, baby.

ii. city of medicine | BLACKSTRAP
Mayko.
it's been five years since the lad arrived
still i have to believe you're still alive
when your lover left you said you wanted to die
did you succeed or do you still try?
i'm living in the city of medicine
i'm giving in i'm giving in
i'm giving in to the city of medicine
i've been up all day and i know i can't win

iii. another place to fall | KT TUNSTALL
Richard, on Mayko.
Are you blind 
Blind to me trying to be kind 
Volunteering for your firing line 
Waiting for one precious sign 
The flicker of a smile 
You should try it just once in a while 
It's simply too easy to do 
And you might not see it through
Find yourself another place to fall 
Find yourself up against another brick wall 
See yourself as a fallen angel 
Well I don't see no holes in the road but you 
Find another place to fall

iv. jumpers | SLEATER-KINNEY
Snowtown & Richard.
The only substance is the fog
And it hides all that has gone wrong
Can't see a thing
Inside the maze
There is a bridge adored and famed
The Golden spine of engineering
Whose back is heavy
With my weight
Lonely as a cloud
In the Golden State
"The coldest winter that I ever saw
Was the summer that I spent . . ."

v. normal days | DENALI
Richard, Snowtown, mood.
Hear the walk, if i speak
Turn it into codes
Break it through, through the wall
Bring it up to speed
Innocence drifts away passing through pains
Just one person in a million waiting for that day
To start and end the line
To pay it all on time

vi. monday monday monday | TEGAN + SARA
Richard to Mayko.
I'm calling out
I don't really care for your city anymore
I spend the night
I lay awake and miss you when you go
Without me
What's wrong with you?
Monday Monday Monday
Monday Monday Monday
Monday Monday Monday
Monday Monday Monday
Oh, and I
I say damn your mood swings
Oh, and I
I say damn your mood swings
Damn your mood swings

vii. city lights on low clouds | STRANGER SPIRITS
Richard on Snowtown & Mayko.
Drifting by in moody shades, 
by orange and blue and reddish haze
The clouds are covering up the truth 
(if that’s the thing I want to see) 
And past the glow of city lights   
It’s like you’re up there through the whites 
of all the whispy daytime clouds 
That now lay looming over me

viii. ana ng | THEY MIGHT BE GIANTS
Mayko.
Make a hole with a gun perpendicular
To the name of this town in a desk-top globe
Exit wound in a foreign nation
Showing the home of the one this was written for
My apartment looks upside down from there
Water spirals the wrong way out the sink
And her voice is a backwards record
It's like a whirlpool and it never ends
Ana Ng and I are getting old
And we still haven't walked in the glow of each other's majestic presence
Listen Ana hear my words
They're the ones you would think I would say if there was a me for you

ix. superball | HELIUM
Mayko to Richard.
A glass eye I use to spy.
Little tiny teeth that tell a golden lie.
My feet are small, I'm not that tall.
I'll tell you the truth, but really not at all.
I'm small like a superball, throw me at the wall
I'm fragile like an eggshell, I'm mad as hell.
My teeth are gold, I'm not that old.
I would tell you the truth, but I'm not that bold.
Hook me with your hand, my mouth is full of sand.
Everything I say ends with and.

x. world of pain | CREAM
Richard on Snowtown.
Is there a reason for today?
Is there a reason for today?
Do you remember?
I can hear all the cries of the city,
No time for pity for a growing tree.
There is a world of pain
In the falling rain
Around me.

xi. bridges | TRACY CHAPMAN
Mayko to Richard.
All the bridges that you burn
Come back one day to haunt you
One day you'll find you're walking
Lonely
Baby I
Never meant to hurt you
Sometimes the best intentions
Still don't make thing right
But all my ghosts they find me
Like my past they think they own me
In dreams and dark corners they surround me
Till I cry I cry

xii. be mine | R.E.M.
Mayko to Richard. Crazy.
And if I choose your sanctuary
I'll want to wash you with my hair.
I'll want to drink of sacred fountains
And find the riches hidden there.
I'll eat the lotus and peyote.
I'll want to hear the caged-bird sing.
I'll want the secrets of the temple.
I'll want the finger with the ring.
You and me.
You and me.
You and me.

xiii. need more time | THE EPOXIES
Snowtown.
All the kids in the basement with a stereo
nobody on the street and everybody knows
that they're running out of time
and they're waiting on the line
and they're laughing at our clothes
they're all locked in and watching our old videos
smoking cigarettes and fingers going up their nose
and they're wasting all their time
thinking everything is fine
no caring what you know
I don't bother to ask why
when you're sitting home and crying
no time to move at all
I don't care why
I need more time
I don't care why
I need more time

xiv. city girl | TEGAN + SARA
Mayko to Richard.
I cried so hard that you pushed me
Further away
I screamed so loud you called the
Police on me
I got so city girl on you
I get so sad that
Sad gets to be
So scared that all my feelings
They up and leave me
I got so city girl on you
I go so crazy I
Don't know what to do

xv. drop in the ocean | MICHELLE BRANCH
Mayko to Richard.
And every time I drift away
I lose myself in you
And now I see I can be me
In everything I do
'Cause I was feeling as small
as a drop in the ocean
And now I realize that
nothing has been as beautiful
As when I saw heaven's skies
In your eyes
In your eyes

xvi. a sad dance | STRANGER SPIRITS
Snowtown.
On the streets in an empty city 
A city in the soul
Where I go I'm looking out ahead 
As I approach I can never walk away 
Where we meet I'm walking with a clock 
And so we dance like the circles of its hands 
I'm not supposed to be here 
Dark gets darker 
The path gets smaller 
While I walk I'm standing back behind me 
Where I stand I'm standing like a stone 
When I look back I'm dancing there beside you 
As I dance I'm dancing there alone 
I'm not supposed to be here 
I'm not supposed to be here 
I'm not supposed to be here, 
So where am I and tell me why 
Where am I supposed to be? 
Saul and Paul - people and stairs   
Into buildings - houses of God 
Elevators and elevator shafts 
A stairway at the bottom of an elevator shaft 
It goes up till it all comes down again 
I am not supposed to be here 
A man got his money and a woman took his soul 
On the streets of this city 
There’s no spirit in the cash 
and there’s no love to make it last 
Watch them dance 
I'm not supposed to be here 
I'm not supposed to be here 
Night's got the moon, Day's got the sun 
We've gotta be where we can belong


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CAVITY. Death Note : Light/L.

2008-01-17T03:46:40Z

Fandom: Death Note.
Pairing: Light/L.
Warnings: Extensive but vague spoilers for the first arc of the manga.
Notes: A warped mix for warped minds. Interpret as you like. 14 songs; band selection includes Sleater-Kinney, Helium, The Never, Nirvana, Matchbox Twenty, Queen, and R.E.M. Contains both .mp3 and .m4a files.

CAVITY: A Light/L Fanmix

1. Cavity { The Never } :||: Light forgets; Kira lingers.

& you're a cavity Light
you're mine all the time
but although it hurts it's good for me L
you're mine all the time
get it right the first time
or you'll be alone
get it right the first time
or you'll be alone

2. Golden Star { My Brightest Diamond } :||: Light seems different now. L's POV.

i always felt so far from you
like something wasn't right
but tonight
i rest my head inside the crook of your arm
and i feel like
a golden star. . . .
though everything has come undone
the distance between us closes
and everything is suddenly
explode
(tonight we are full of
tonight we rejoice)

3. Let's Call It Love { Sleater-Kinney } :||: Light's smothered sociopath psyche swoons for sadistic supergenius sex. Light's POV.

come on let's play a game
it won't hurt just say my name
i got a long time for love
roll the dice, take your card
let's see if your number is up
i got a long time for love
pony up, try and guess my hand
what have I learned from experience?
i got a long time for love
let's call it my royal flush, i can show you what to do with it
i got a long time for love
slow moves and dirty tricks
want it like you never have
timing and tiger strength
strategy will put you past
show me your darkest side
and you better be my bloody match

4. One More Notch { Murder By Death } :||: A cautionary song.

you've forgotten everything but yourselves
you don't really even matter to each other
it's the rush that you get when you know you've done wrong
as you make your bodies separate but you never notice
that the other is burning
you just pity yourself
you aren't safe under the earth
hiding your actions covert & dirty
like a snake shedding its skin
if you fess up you can start all over again
and the whirlwind lifts you up to the ceiling
the balconies pass but you don't even see them
as they go by
and it whips your bodies higher and higher
when your lips lock you both catch on fire
the crowd covers their eyes

5. Pat's Trick { Helium } :||: L is distracted. L's POV.

we had a pirate band
a tear for every grandstand
& i was fading with my hands
over you beautiful thing
you are the most beautiful thing
flower of life bird of spring
you are the most beautiful thing. . . .
some say it's like a beautiful flower
some say it is a terrible power
i'll meet you at the ending hour
i wanna use i wanna use that power

6. Drain You { Nirvana } :||: Light's back in business.

one baby to another says i'm lucky to have met you Light
i don't care what you think unless it is about me
it is now my duty to completely drain you
i travel through a tube & end up in your infection
chew your meat for you L
pass it back & forth
in a passionate kiss
from my mouth to yours
sloppy lips to lips
you're my vile friend
i like you

7. Dig Me Out { Sleater-Kinney } :||: L's stuck and missing something crucial. L's POV.

i have your hands your holes
in me in me it shows
oh god let me in
there's nowhere else to go
oh god let me in
& let me go go go go
dig me out
dig me in
outta this mess baby outta my head
dig me out
dig me in
outta my body outta my skin

8. Downfall { Matchbox Twenty } :||: Kira and Light are not the same person: Kira is a parasite. L's seconds are numbered.

i wonder how you sleep L
i wonder what you think of me
if i could go back
would you have ever been with me
i want you to be unleashed
i want you to remember
i want you to agree with me
i want you on my side
come on & lay it down Kira
i've always been with you
here & now
give all that's within you
be my saviour
& i'll be your downfall. . . .
only love will save us now. . . .
now i'm back on my own Light
my feet they're made of stone. . . .
i'm coming home L
on my back
kissing me
your lips are painted black. . . .

9. My Last Breath { Evanescence } :||: Even during cardiac arrest, L has tongue firmly in cheek (and Light's, incidentally, are crocodile tears). L's POV.

hold on to me love
you know i can't stay long
all i wanted to say was i love you & i'm not afraid
can you hear me?
can you feel me in your arms? . . .
i know you hear me
i can taste it in your tears
holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight

10. Another One Bites The Dust { Queen } :||: The end of L.

are you ready hey are you ready for this? Light
are you hanging on the edge of your seat?
out of the doorway the bullets rip
to the sound of the beat. . . .
are you happy are you satisfied? L
how long can you stand the heat?
out of the doorway the bullets rip
to the sound of the beat look out
another one bites the dust Light
another one bites the dust
and another one gone and another one gone
another one bites the dust
hey i'm gonna get you too
another one bites the dust

11. Funeral Song { Sleater-Kinney } :||: Put it in the ground. L's zombie-esque POV, more or less.

put it in the ground sing a funeral song
put it in the ground sing a funeral song
have the neighbours over & they'll sing along
lowering the coffin on a love gone wrong
hey there now what'd you bury today
hey there now what'd you bury today
buried the love that i'd hoped would stay
nothing says forever like my very own grave

12. I Took Your Name { R.E.M. } :||: Bittersweet victory. Light's POV.

i wore the clothes you wanted
i took your name
if there is some confusion
who's to blame?
i signed your living will
i smiled your face. . . .
if there is some confusion
who's to blame?
who's to blame?

13. Are You Happy Now? { Michelle Branch } :||: Fulfillment or lack thereof. L looks on. L's POV.

now
don't just walk away
pretending everything's okay
& you don't care about me
& i
know it's just no use
when all your lies become your truths
& i don't care
could you look me in the eye
& tell me that you're happy now?
could you tell it to my face
or have i been erased
are you happy now?
are you happy now?

14. Carry On My Wayward Son { Kansas } :||: Light runs toward his end. Light's POV, or maybe L's if he's transformed into a wise, bearded elder up there in Heaven. You decide.

once i rose above the noise & confusion
just to get a glimpse beyond this illusion
i was soaring ever higher
but i flew too high
though my eyes could see i still was a blind man
though my mind could think i still was a madman
i hear the voices when i'm dreaming
i can hear them sing:
'carry on my wayward son
there'll be peace when you are done
lay your weary head to rest
don't you cry no more'
masquerading as a man with a reason
my charade is the event of the season
& if i claim to be a wise man well
it surely means that i don't know
on a stormy sea of moving emotion
tossed about i'm like a ship on the ocean
i set a course for winds of fortune
but i hear the voices sing:
'carry on my wayward song
there'll be peace when you are done
lay your weary head to rest
don't you cry no more'

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THE GARDEN. Good Omens : Crowley/Aziraphale.

2008-01-03T02:10:30Z

Fandom: Good Omens.
Pairing: Crowley/Aziraphale.
Warnings: Mild cursing.
Notes: This is a rather eclectic mix, but cohesive & containing something for
everyone, I hope. Band selection includes (among others) I Am Kloot, R.E.M., Tegan & Sara,
Franz Ferdinand, Matchbox Twenty, Poe, & The Decemberists. ALL FILES NOW IN .MP3 FORMAT.

THE GARDEN:
A CROWLEY/AZIRAPHALE FANMIX

1. Three Hits - Indigo Girls
Introducting Crowley:
three hits to the heart son
& it's poetry in motion
one could send you down the river
three's a strange way to be delivered
would you trade your words for freedom
that's a barter for a blind man
three hits to the heart son
& it's poetry in motion.
are you leveed like a treasure
only words can help me find you
& this world's a fickle measure
i will painfully remind you
from a wise man to your red hand
you lay covered in our best sins
three hits to the heart son
& it's poetry in motion.
well i dream you constant stranger
with your best bloods & your anger
you say 'mother do you claim me
my beloved do you blame me'
well the first two might release you
but the last one sings in me son
three hits to the heart son
& it's poetry in motion
three hits to the heart son
& the last one sings in me. . . .

2. The Great Beyond - R.E.M.
Dreaming of the unattainable:
i've watched the stars fall silent from your eyes
oh the sights that i have seen
i can't believe that i believed
i wish that you could see
there's a new planet in the solar system
there is nothing up my sleeve.
i'm pushing an elephant up the stairs
i'm tossing up punchlines that were never there
over my shoulder a piano falls
crashing to the ground.
in all this talk of time talk is fine
but i don't want to stay around
why can't we pantomime
just close our eyes & sleep sweet dreams
me & you with wings on our feet.
i'm breaking through i'm bending spoons
i'm keeping flowers in full bloom
i'm looking for answers from the great beyond.
i want the hummingbirds the dancing bears
sweetest dreams of you
looking to the stars
looking to the moon. . . .

3. Want To Be Bad - Tegan + Sara
Crowley gets the news, gets the baby, gets drunk, & gets in over his head:
your crowbar swung through the restaurant
more like a pub yeah we drank a lot.
don't get in over your head
i just want to be bad oh oh all right
you're so tragedy & you were hard on me.
you might be dead but it's hard to know
the night turns in but you're all go go.
then morning came
we're in this together
i don't care how far we go
what's the matter
what's the matter. . . .

4. Start Together - Sleater-Kinney
Desperation & confusion amidst grudging co-operation:
if you want me it's changing
if you want everything's changing
if you want the sky would open up
if you want your eyes could open up.
i'm a mess
i'm the worst
but the best
that you've heard.
come so far come close together
don't tear apart what we've worked for.
right or wrong
here we are
i wanna know
what you are
what you are.
baby don't you leave me baby don't you go
'cause i'll head out the fences head out the door
baby don't you leave me baby don't you go
'cause i'll roll with the punches roll out the door.
i don't know what you want
but i got what you. . . .

5. Evil And A Heathen - Franz Ferdinand
Working in close proximity to the Enemy, trying to avert the unavoidable, Crowley is sucked in:
words fall from our mouths like plates from shaking hands
smash upon the silence of the smooth naked canal.
well i'm evil & a heathen
i'm evil & a heathen
i'm a heathen & evil like you
there's not a lot not a lot i couldn't do.
well i like how you pretend that the end will be the end
so fill up first & drink a curse to the death of death instead.
your teeth are black with wine as you place those lips on mine
the moon hangs heavy & forbidden high in the night of our lives. . . .

6. Storm Warning - I Am Kloot
In the face of the coming Apocalypse & Aziraphale, Crowley gets stinking drunk & muses on things; this leads nowhere good nor coherent:
hell for leather lathered drunk
you're soused you're pissed you're sunk
the jukebox now is drunk
just along the way
had a call last saturday
to say i'd thrown my friends away
reverse the charges on 'em all
i made a lot of calls.
is there a storm coming
or are we just another shower
is there a storm warning
or did someone just cut the power
is there a storm coming
or are we just another shower
'cause there's a storm coming
coming coming coming.
i would've kept you free from harm
rang the bells & raised alarms
i would've kept them all at bay
except i thought i heard you say
'you're the leper boy you can't come in
the monkey god says now you're king
you're out you're in you're out you're in
you're out you're in you're out'. . . .

7. It's You - Michelle Branch
Secrets in the face of the storm:
if tomorrow never comes
i would want just one thing
i would tell it to the stars & the sun
i would write it for the world to see.
& it's you
the light changes when you're in the room
oh it's you oh it's you.
if tomorrow never comes
i would want just one wish
to kiss your quiet mouth
& trace the steps with my fingertips. . . .

8. Downfall - Matchbox Twenty
The inevitable tempest of 'what if's:
i wonder how you sleep i wonder what you think of me
if i could go back would you have ever been with me
i want you to be unleashed i want you to remember
i want you to believe in me i want you on my side.
come on & lay it down
i've always been with you
here & now
give all that's within you
be my saviour
& i'll be your downfall.
here we go again ashamed of being broken in
we're getting off track i wanna get you back again
i want you to trouble me i wanted you to linger
yeah i want you to agree with me i want so much so bad.
yeah be my saviour
only love can save us now
come lay me down
only love can save us now
i'll be your downfall
ah love can save us now
love save me now.
lay it down
i've always been with you
hear me now
with all that's within you
be my saviour
& i'll be your downfall. . . .

9. Mock Orange - Fashion Design
Crowley goes to see Aziraphale & stumbles into a fire:
this cannot be here
it twisted time
it shut you down
& it will kill us all.
you cannot be here
you twisted love
you shut me down
& you will kill us all.
i cannot be here
i twisted fate
i shut us down
& i will kill us all.

10. I'll Believe In Anything - Wolf Parade
In the face of the flames, Crowley is bared & ready to fight for his angel:
give me your eyes i need sunshine
give me your eyes i need sunshine
your blood your bones
your voice & your ghost
we've both been very brave
walk around with both legs
fight the scary day
we both pull the tricks out of our sleeves.
but i'll believe in anything
& you'll believe in anything
said i'll believe in anything
& you'll believe in anything.
if i could take the fire out from the water
i'd share a life & you'd share a life
if i could take the fire out from the water
i'd share a life & you'd share a life
if i could take the fire out from the water
i'd take you where nobody knows you & nobody gives a damn
said nobody knows you & nobody gives a damn.
& i could take another hit for you
& i could take away your trips from you
& i could take away the salt from your eyes
& take away the spitting salt in you
& i could give you my apologies
by handing over my neologies
& i could take away the shaking knees
& i could give you all the olive trees
look at the trees & look at my face
& look at a place far away from here.
if i could take the fire out from the water
i'd take you where nobody knows you & nobody gives a damn
i said nobody knows you & nobody gives a damn
i said nobody knows you & nobody gives a damn either way
about your blood your bones
your voice & your ghost
because nobody knows you & nobody gives a damn either way
& now i'll believe in anything. . . .

11. Love Me Like The World Is Ending - Ben Lee
His car is on fire - and so is he:
this is the first day of the future
& all i want is you
i wear a pair of socks you left here
but i know i know i know nobody could ever fill your shoes.
i can see so clearly when the smoke gets in my eyes
please me with your promises & hurt me with your lies
baby can you hear the message i am sending
love me like the world is ending.
this is the last day of existence
and all i want is you
and there's a sudden sadness
but i know i know i know the sky is what makes the ocean blue
i know i know i know the sky is what makes the ocean blue.
and they all say to pour it has to rain
so don't complain if we get wet
in the deep end. . . .

12. Eve Of Destruction - Bishop Allen
He finds Aziraphale in rather unfortunate circumstances (specifically an uncertain Apocalypse):
& if this moment is gone in a flash
& my hand in yours becomes ash in ash
& everyone becomes just dust in the blast
at least this day will be our last.
& i tell you over & over & over again my friend
that i'm down with you even on the eve of destruction.
what if saint peter won't let us in
saying heaven's a place for the innocent
& we'll have a dance (yeah a dance) on the head of a pin
& god will grin & shoo us away. . . .

13. Hallelujah - Paramore
Holding hands in the teeth of the gale, scared witless & full of hope:
somehow everything's gonna fall right into place
if we only had a way to make it fall faster every day
if only time flew like a dove
will god make it fly faster than i'm falling in love.
this time we're not giving up
let's make it last forever
screaming hallelujah
we'll make it last forever.
holding on to bases wearing thin
i can't force these eyes to see the end
if only time flew like a dove
we could watch it fly & just keep looking up.
& we've got time on our hands
we've got
got nothing but time on our hands
got nothing but got nothing but
got nothing but time on our hands. . . .

14. Amazed - Poe
Confessions:
it's amazing to me i can't seem to say what i'm doing here
my tongue is all twisted around the air
looking for words that were so well rehearsed
but i can't find them anywhere
with you there's no easy answer it's true
you change the equation i add up to
& all of the things that i thought i knew
you turn it around.
i'm amazed
when push comes to shove what i'd give to you
everything
i'm amazed
the hallways i wouldn't mind crawling through
& i do it for days & for days
i'm amazed i'm amazed i'm amazed i'm amazed
the places you're taking me to.
wait i thought i had this down
i built all my cages & my hideouts
& i covered all my bases
i locked the door i shut all my windows
but you came creeping like a whisper it's true
i try not to listen yeah but i hear you
i'm not really sure just what it is you do
but do it again.
i'm amazed
when push comes to shove what i'd give to you
everything
i'm amazed
the walls that i wouldn't mind crashing through
& i'd do it for days & for days
i'm amazed i'm amazed i'm amazed i'm amazed.
& all of the things i know you have done
but this time i think that we've really won
the tables have turned now i'm taking my hat off to you
who said 'we'll see'
darling it's all clear to me
i'm amazed. . . .

15. The Garden Of Everything - Maaya Sakamoto & Steven Conte
Eden sex (what else is there to say?):
here you are daylight's star made out of miracles
perfection of your own you alone oh so incredible
each atom sings to me 'set me free from chains of the physical'
oh free me oh free me
the mirror melts i'm somewhere else inside eternity
where you on outstretched wings sing within the garden of everything
where memories call to me backward dreams or phantom reality
call to me they call to me.
& so here we are lovers of lost dimensions
burning supernovas of all sound & sight
every touch a temptation & for every sense a sensation.
eyes of pure deep azure quite unbelievable
the sun's daughter you've been made not to fade quite inconceivable
each atom sings to me 'set me free from chains of the physical'
oh free me oh free me
a love like ours a starry flower through seasons & centuries
as rivers reach the sea you'll reach me with songs of your symmetry
a small boat there will float to far off coasts the isle of infinity
come with me oh come with me
here we'll see love's lost tree made out of miracles
emotions crystal leaves to cover me & you in eternity
each atom sings to us through the blood 'love is a miracle'
sings softly it sings softly.
& so here we are twin stars of brilliant brightness
lanterns lit by life for all the depths of night
& every day will return us to arms of the ever eternal
so here we are so far from earthly orbits
burning supernovas of all sound & sight
where every day will return us to arms of the ever eternal. . . .

16. I Believe - I Am Kloot
Something starts, imperfect & impermanent, but good enough - & they've lasted this long:
i believe in the hallelujah chorus of the shopping malls
we say we can't we know we shan't well of course we shall
'cause i've seen i believe.
i believe that we are forever something which is incomplete
we trade ourselves for nothings & the words are our conceit
i have seen now i believe
that the ceaseless seamless straying of your heart
will one day cause itself to make a start
you & me we believe.
i never thought i'd string along
i never thought we'd last this long
but we've seen so we believe
in the hallelujah chorus of the shopping malls
we say we can't we know we shan't well of course we shall
'cause we've seen & now we believe.
i never thought i'd string along
i never thought we'd last this long
i have seen i believe
that we are forever something that is incomplete
we trade ourselves for nothings & the words are our conceit
i have seen i believe. . . .

17. Of Angels And Angles - The Decemberists
Lazing on a Sunday afternoon:
there are angels in your angles
there's a low moon caught in your tangles
there's a ticking at the sill
there's a purr of a pigeon to break the still of day
as on we go drowning
down we go away
& darling we go a-drowning
down we go away
away.
there's a tough word on your crossword
there's a bedbug nipping a finger
there's a swallow there's a calm
here's a hand to lay on your open palm today
as on we go drowning
down we go away
& darling we go a-drowning
down we go away
away.
there are angels in your angles
there's a low moon caught in your tangles. . . .

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